Damm you because i refuse to back down and i will not for the ones who come dilligently for band every practice for the soul of leaders who are willing and passionate like Yan Jun and Jun An i will not back down April...we shall see
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Springfield 5th ROD just over on saturday initially hoped to rally springfield seniors to the cause but when i wanted to open my mouth i realised they are not the people i want to talk to it may sound all the way seems wrong but. i do not feel burning passion nor fighting spirit nor the will to help the band do well. I felt none of those No encouraging words could come from my mouth No blood rushing to my heart and soul None. From this 40 odd seniors present. I felt none. But except for the some. The particular some i find them at my side in anticipation for this battle. One of our darkest hour. It was at the dinner table i see maybe not defying passion but undying will. Will that needs someone to pull them through. At this table i saw Mingzhen, Jack, Geraldine, Esther, Joseph, Wei Siang, Jasper. Leaders of the "Old Guards" i might call In them i can feel my blood flow into my heart and soul To let loose inspiration and determination. Yes its a war on many fronts Teachers (t...
Lead. Serve. Protect. Nurture To Lead To bring people where they ought to be, but not necessary where they want to be To Serve To put in whole-heartedness, group before self To Protect First to defend the group regardless right or wrong, no matter the status. In any situation no matter how desperate the situations. To Nurture Grow and develop new leaders to ensure continuity if not growth. The creed of leadership..... My creed of leadership Developed over the years through all my experiences. In any organization ive led in, i have always followed this creed. This belief. Band, Karate and other passing projects. Springfield and Ping Yi is effectively separated. Many Springfield Seniors have decided to help ping yi for the coming SYF. I dont blame them. If its where their hearts lies. They arent making any morally wrong decision. Theres nothing wrong. Ping yi is more supportive of the alumni movement. Be it time, money, effort, support. Ping yi have been giving the members, seniors tre...
oh yea alas attachment is ending~ haha foodfare over not too long ago my voice is still down too much shouting already then got to know a few promoters too oh my god i feel so damm old all 15-16 years old xiao mei mei Ok the club finally has gotten into place now to see how my planned systems work but i must remind myself no matter how fantastic a system is it will only work when there are willing and passionate people. So far so good looks like all these years in band im finally doing good in other places of my lives shows that training then can be applied anywhere i hope to pass down what i could not in band The Strength to command respect The Knowledge to Lead The Courage to protect I shall see my system unfold itself in the weeks, months to come Im full of hope
Here i am again going to bitch about my life haha. i do wonder is it life that is hard by itself or am i making my own life hard to pass oh well. training aint what it used to be maybe i should be more selfish its not that i dont want to teach but it just seems nobody appreciates at all at the expense of my own skills i want to train i want to be good i want to improve but i find it so hard trainings are also devoted to helping and teaching but i want to train passing down at tp karate soon i hope they will never forget that we still have a mission at hand continue to strengthen ourselves increase our intake improve our skills ultimately win the medals its still a worry.... SIP is ending soon end of this month seems quick at times simply slow and excruciating at times too but its ending. haha i guess its one of those low times of life i need a hug!!!!! A walk in the snow footprints covered
erm.... too long never update i see so much rust and cobwebs around this blog of mine what can i say, a lacklustre performance for pesta sukan tournement awhile back one mentally and physically demanding SIP one super irritating and lazy intern at the work place Sports Club and Karate camp so much problems work tommorow again.... retraining should start soon for me haha getting weaker by the moments
first time in my life im blogging morning 9.30am! haha got nothing to do yet. anyhow yay! xiaoshi lent me her mambo jamobo CD to rip! i always liked oldies. yay! x2 all projects are submitted now left with just 1 presentation the new intake will be coming later haha and im kinad dissapointed with huasheng i want to believe he can step up to the job but its kinda hard to believe im worried after yijia and gang leave no strong ones to take over and we are still at our first year! my god
TP results for today 3 gold 3 sliver 4 bronze i got 1 gold 1 bronze for myself. hmmmm i didnt thought i performed well today Started off right ended off crap looks like i have to stop relying on my trusty middle punch and start training the useless legs of mine match score as follows 1--6-4 2--6-2 3--2-1 4--lost 5-3 haha so much for dreaming to be good in this field
Life in one circle That means that theres a begining and yea theres the end. when you reach the end, you start a new begining thats a circle no? but what happens if you didnt end before you start a new begining? paradoxical haha i also dunno what the hell im talking about sat is the tournement karate recruitment was just over maybe i should adopt a even softer stance if it was the band, i would have machine gunned them so much mixed feelings dont know how to say
So ive decided to take up the president post in Titans Alumni the place where i grew, learnt and become who i am. i guess my life has finally come in one full circle im back where i once started facing the same problems that were once a upon a time so not winning the sports club election was a blessing in disguise if not i wont even know how to handle i want to be ......... i want to make my life......... i want to achieve.......... i hope...........
Im very happy today just yesterday i was complaining that my life is squeezed into this week and then today on my birthday, my whole life celebrated it for me. had 4 cakes~ lots of presents which i always wanted thanks, elizabeth, xiao shi, mei qin and jorine for the 1st suprise of the day in the lab thanks, kai wen, andrew, samantha, hong tuan, melvin for the next one and the meal thanks, yijia, nick, ying pei and the rest of the karate team for the wonderful belt and the 2 lovely cakes. thanks everyone it is the happiest birthday of my life
i am so angry at myself how could i have lost 7-0 i thought that was left in the freakin past i freakin screwed the selection up. though i won the 2nd match 4-1 it was not enough to bury my anger. i freakin no stamina no good techique to show maybe im just not good enough for karate. ever searching for what i can do well ever searching. how do i beat terrence seems that ppl with the name terrence always wins me darn it give me the strength so that i can win the courage so that i can attack the knowledge so that i can defend
hehe long time no blog well, i did a mascot job during the food expo got abused touched hugged had fun with kids but it was hot and heavy a kangaroo costume. hehe took a pic with a pretty girl~. ah i didnt make the team this time oh well. work harder ya plagued by multiple injuries that wont heal crap. Ran for sports club 173 votes guess im aint that popular huh~ so much to do which i havent get down to yet. ah crap haha
Stupid Blogger. i see nuts. Anyway, 1 gold 1 bronze for IVP Aint that happy. I should have gotten the kata bronze too. Dammit Stupid Knee. National Trial today. I dunno how i did. But i do hope to make the damm team. **fingers Crossed. Very Suay-ly I injured my knee on friday. So i didnt fight my best for sat and sun but still, being injured opened a new kind of fighting for me. Forced to wait and react not my thing but its good tecnique.
well, CCA recruitment just ended. A nightmare for me so im glad its ok. Not easy handling the entire sports section plus your own karate side. Also have to listen to people "sing" in your ear. Not happy at all. I sometimes wonder why am i doing all these. At times like this, it would be nice to have some love around. haha. On the up side, i got to know the captains better. Surely make my work easier in the future. Choosing the next captain. Should i hold on or should i pass on. One step at a time One girl at a glance Determine my future
Another sprint of inspiration from some thoughts~ would you wipe my mouth when i eat, and hold me in your arms like im a kid? Are you willing to do all these, one hundred years from now? Could you lend me your shoulder, when i cry or when i sleep, even when im just feeling lazy. do all these for me ya? one hundred years from now. And Just like in a fairytale, can you sit with me to watch the sunset, Ill hold your hand in the waltz of our life, dancing away forever...... even one hundred years from now forever and ever one hundred years from now.......... Gim kai 2304Hrs
And so Sports Leadership Training Camp 2007 have come into pass, id say this is one of the more interesting camps ive been to. not programme wise, but the nature of the camp itself. i thought it would be nice to be a participant of the camp first before becoming the leader, but looks like i took a jump forward. nonetheless, its interesting to see a camp of would be leaders. observing it makes me realise the saying, "some people are born great, while some have greatness trust upon them". Ill be looking forward to next years SLTC. Oh, i saw this girl in camp too bad didnt have the chance to talk to her. got me tickley inside. oh well, such is fate
wow for the first time on saturday i tried ice skating kinda liked it kinda interested in learning roller blading because of that thought it would be a good skill to pick up. Saturday was fun first outing of us hayashi karate (exculding the old people) haha *nervous laugh we should do it often its good for the team and we can form the hayashi skating team!!!!!! upper upper on the ice~
100th post The Centineial Post After 3 years of blogging i hit the big 100. A post worthy of reflection what ive been doing with my life these years What do i want to do with my life from now. yes...... what do i want to do from now....... Captain, Temasek Karate Prompted to run for president of Sports Club next yr score better for my results...... improve my skills as a fighter.... Do i need all these i ask myself. If you ask me, im least interesred to run for president continue my captaincy. But before i leave TP i would want to see my dream fullfilled. So yes i would run for president continue my captaincy and execute them with vigour. I just hope my dream will reach out to many others who will in turn share these dream with others. Its not a sport Not a hobby Its what i do.
"Fly away" by Corrine May i Like this song very meaningful lyrics. "When will you be home?" she asksas we watch the planes take off We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled As a child, she was my world And now to let me go, I know she bleedsand yet she says to me You can fly so high Keep your gaze upon the sky I'll be prayin every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away Autumn leaves fell into spring time and SIlver-painted hair Daddy called one evening saying "We need you. Please come back"When I saw her laying in her bed Fragile as a child Pale just like an angel taking flightI held her as I cried You can fly so highKeep your gaze upon the skyI'll be prayin every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apartI love you too much to make you stayBab...
today something extraordinary happened...... words cannot describe how i feel...... it was a heart stopping moment........ it was....... love at first sight....! my goodness..... i saw my dream.......... dream.......... dream......... BAG!!!!! haha. yea that was nonsense of what i just said. but i did saw a bag i really like. not too small, not too big, alot of compartments just the way i like it durable comfy and its the camel brand, real stuff. for those who dont know, camel produce hard stuff. i wld like to take photo and poste it here but my laziness forbids me so haha i got my adidas full training/overseas bag i got me school/training bag now im gonna get me a pure school bag from carrefour i saw today haha IF i got money
The following is written in inspiration from a long conversation i had last night. it is written also for this person => The Measure of Me written by: me How do others measure me? By the glories of my past? The actions of my present? The plans of my unspoken future? The medals of my game? The degree of my literature? The beauty of my wife? The pedigree of my children? The granduer of my house? The trail of dust my car leave behind? Or is it by the height of my tombstone, where the metals of my game, the paper of my literature, the wrinkles of my wife, the growth of my children the rubbles of my house the scraps of my car comes in naught. I will tell you how i measure me. By the lives ive tried to inspire and change By the days ive lived in happiness By every moment i have not crumbbled to pain and death. Above all By the knowledge that my heart feels love. as much as pain By the seconds i stay alive and well In all the units of measurement of the world This is how i measure myself
i got me a electric mosqito squatter die you blardy mosqitoes die die die. damm, i read about 1/3 of the book in 2 days amazing, but true. it might seem little to story fanatics out there but hey its gim kai we are talking about here he dont blardy read. i just found out 5mins ago you cant keep good chocolate in your mouth, you are suppose to bite em thats when it taste nice. lol. at least thats what i think, do correct me if im wrong
i did something unbelivable today i actually went to kino and bought 2 books worth 40 over bucks haha i dont freakin read but i bought books one is a spartan story something got to do with upcoming movie "300" i such a sucker for war stories. another is a collection of piano scores lots of nice oldies to play im gonna memorise "moon river" hehe
To dream the impossible dream To fight the unbeatable foe to bear the unbearable sorrow To run where the brave dare not go To right the unrightable wrong To love pure and chaste from afar To try when your arms are too weary To reach the unreachable star. That is my quest to follow that star No matter how hopeless No matter how far To fight for the right Without question or pause To be willing to march into hell for a heavenly cause And i know if i'll only be true To this glorious quest That my heart will lie peaceful and calm When im laid to my rest And the world will be better for this That one man scorned and covered with scars.
inspiried by the mini-series (Band of Brothers) "We Stand Alone Together" Other then achieving victories, the most memorable moments of my leadership life in band was rallying the people, rallying to encourage them rallying to face adversity. That moment where your voice ring out on the field, where your men stand at attention where you feel the air around you literally change Where at that moment many hearts unify to beat as one. When you feel that, you know your voice have brought the diversity of many to become one. you know all of us are finally one. "From this day to the ending of the world. We in it shall be remembered. We the lucky few We Band Of Brothers. For he who today sheds his blood with me, shall be my brother."
so proud of myself managed to revamp my blog yay haha is cheering someone up a skill? can anybody teach me? so i be the best friends of everyone haha greedy arent i but who in the world will curse themselves for having too many good friends i enjoy meeting new people dunno why~ but its always fun yes? something random i like listening to oldies but dont call me old or ill dug ur eyes out with a rusty spoon. are my emotional injuries self infflicted? i somehow think so haha live fast stay strong die easy
cant believe it 2 days ago i was at a friends house playing "21 points" 3 times i got double aces, which meant triple pay! but each time the banker got 15 points, which gives the banker the right to void the game and restart! sian... haha again, its just a game really on another note my life has transisited about 90% different since 2004 friends, life, activities, many more, it aint a bad thing after all i did want t new life when i started poly i guess i somewhat almost did it. the remanants of my old life comes in the shape of people people you want to forget but just cant bear to. darn it haha on another note im just so proud of myself for sewing back my own karate gloves it doesnt look all that nice but its decent enough should have let yingpei sew it for me hear that yingpei!!! next time ask you to sew for me haha chinese new year is getting boring by the year even the food! luckily the ang bao izzint if not ill stop visiting all together dont run away if you got marrie...
Pain is in the air oh~ pain is in the air haha i say tt cause im experiencing some pain when i run recently i experience sharp pain on my right shin sharp pain, its real sharp pain damm azure for sweeping me during training last wedsday haha on a lighter note i have cookies and brownies courtesy of yingpei and yijia i so love sweets and confectionary specially if its handmade i just have a thing for handmade food oh the bronwnies are nice and the cookies are nicer haha
oh my god a week of illness has reduced my stamina to crap and shit was huffing and puffing at training at ngee ann yesterday went for a run today, the first 3 click was still the same but thats about it, i was wheezing after that usually i can go for about 5 click before i run out of gas darn need to retrain again sianzz oh the other hand travelling wasnt that bored with the girls accompanying me the long trip can get really sian
i swear to god this year hasnt been a good year really so much confilct with so much people i always thought its them maybe its me whos the problem?? god knows i also do not know why im so concered about others blabbering i used to throw shit back with no remorse when people throw shit at me but know i feel like a whimpering monkey whos scared of this and that damm...... signs of growing up? or just a case of shrinking guts. anyway went to malaysia for karate demostration today a short trip into JB fun nonetheless was talking to some girls at my table during the banquet (they treated us to a banquet!) haha and it was a good talk lots of laughing and jabbering. HOWEVER, worse of all, i forgot to take pictures with em!!! how bad can the year get!? @%$^$$#% oh well good experience.
what a way to start 2007 got shot up quite badly by a friend for caring too much haha and then i got shot up again at night by someone else over matters i not discuss here that leaves a badly shot up me thats like a equal of 2 heavy machine guns unloading on me haha cant ask for a better new year day can i?