a billion years ago i updated my blog, and now, a billion years after, im here again. was thinking of updating quite a few times but was kinda lazy. yup thats the extend of my laziness. Haha. lots of things happened since i last updatyed. hmmm lets start with the most recent one. Exams over!!! yay!!!!! after todays paper, we went to eat, and me and wei bin (classmate) were like drunk man, haha expecially me, singing hokkien songs at the top of my voice while walking down a long windy path. talk crap sing crap. i sung something about riding on a white horse haha. sen cia pai bae.hahaha. naturally high, never felt like tt for so long maybe cause exam over already. and then i finallt went the 2nd training of the year few days back. god...my body aches like siao. i shall not ke kiang in training anymore. and people, its official. i am addicted to rome total war. blardy good game even during exam period i also play. im mad. oh valentines? nothing much really, had a buffet with my class singles club. kinda cool, ate like a pig who never eat for a long time. good place, yuki yaki at cine. worth the money for the buffet. and even before that watched jarhead with xiao quan while getting the VCD called crying out from the center of the earth. a touching a nice show too but not my first choice,i wanted tales of the bizzare budden blardy hell search for that whole particular week also cannot find. not online either. bleh. ok i shall update again SOON i promise since i got more time now. haha im talking to myself. realised i dont usually post bad things on my blog or bad events. sometimes its not i dont want to but somethings are better left alone. cause when i type it out it brings back the pain and whatever.

Gim kai signing off

come to post obviously got thing happen right. so ya lets start with new year. everyone is growing up except me. the only teen still playing with the kids and im actually having fun!!!! oh my god....something is wrong but i cant deny i like kids. this yr is duller in a way. 2 of my young cousins are getting married one 19 the other 22. haha my aunts and friends were asking when my turn and i say wait after NS then say lar. and then there awas CHINGAY. haha it was fun while it lasted. cant believe after months of regular practice, the event is over just like that. its like as if going to people's association is a must do thing every week then. suddenly i feel an empty feeling in my heart like a chunk of it is missing. and i finally realised why i always keep myself occupied with activities untill im so packed.piano, karate, chingay, projects. when things end, i tend to quickly find a replacement to it cause i hate that empty feeling. kinda like when friends and friends were no longer as close anymore. but that......is something that cannot be replaced easily. i was hopping and hoping of finding bosom friends in poly, but i guess not yet. it just never came. im not saying i got no friends there but i just know those wont last. once we change classes, so will our relationship with each other. its always nice to have someone to always hang out with.just hang around. haha. give up lar, as the chinese put it. "yi qie shui yuan" leave it all to fate.


it made me think after an incident that happened few days back. must there be a motive for friends to become good friends? and improve so on up the level? is it possible for the opposite sex to become best friends without involving any possible love relationship? whats happens after the love? many questions. somewhat i though i knew then answer back then, but i guess its time to think again. the next time im on better terms with a female, i should be more careful.

oh the ice queen says she talks in class now, a big change really and she actually inititates some wacky ideas. so unlike her. wah seh, teacher talking you also talk hor. last time like ice mountain like that, want to talk to you like so difficult. now like so lively and bubbly. the change is good and stop saying u wanna change back cause that will never happen. ultimately its the crowd you mix with. unless u telling me you gonna change crowd. *ive came across your old blog =>