ok this is bad......got a super super super painful pulled muscle at the right leg and tournement is only 4 days from now.. its so painful im typing this at 6am in the morning cause i cant freaking sleep.......damm suay you might put it.....feel super crippled.......how to fight when you cant use the legs??? stand there and be sitting duck?? hope and pray i get better enough to do kicks at least for a few times so that i can use em for counters. this tournement is my chance to get at least a sliver

*gim kai hope and pray he gets well soon

Gim Kai body update

• still brusied knee
• Sore jaw cannot open mouth to fullest

the fight is coming.....i cant wait.......
what a wonderful world

life is never fair??? maybe its destined that i must end my springfield seconday school saga.....a big word for a not so big me. had a nice talk with this long time friend today and its good to known shes doing fine and even found herself a very very good friend. thats kinda great. i dont know this good friend of hers, and i wld very much like to know this felle. if *you hurt her, im gonna tear your guts out. im serious. if not, its pretty much fine. actually springfield have only 3 things that i lived for in my school days. one was band, but that was over......then there was the acadamics, the teachers (mdm lim, own everything to her) and then my best bud her. budden things got messy and nv had the chance to really talk to her........but now ive missed 7 mths of her life, totally lost track of her life. what can i say, im a big failure at personal relations. still havent been actually fitting into poly yet, even though my class is indeed fun. but its just different man.........theres no true buddies around......girls with fashion and glamour come to school for catwalk, guys with hair waxed enough to burn the entire empire stae building. how is it possible to look beyond those wax and make-up?? and see thou human soul. call it a talent, call it a curse, what ever it may be, i am quite confident at my human analytical skills. help me see souls.......maybe in my whole pathetic life, i will only have that one true soulmate and buddy???

gim kai body update
1 sore knee
1 brusied ankle
pulled nerve endings and muscle at left arm
skin peeling from sun burn
1 screwed brain
1 confused heart
1 hungry stomach

who would walk the rain with me?
who would sit with me where silence will be enough for our converation
who would trust me so as to fall in my arms from somewhere high
who would have my trust as my thoughts are safely locked in someones mind
who would have me protect when someone is hurt
who would protect me when i have no corner to turn
would who??

haha.......life is so weird........i was doing a yahoo search of my own name, now that sounds pretty weird, but ya, im bored, so boredom brings out the weirdness in me....and then i stumbled across a blog of a long time friend. all her entries were dated june-august 2004. and after reading her entries, i feel like ripping my own heart out.......i never knew so much emotions were involved. why am i so blind as not to see it??? why did i only see this entries only 1 year later?? why??? should i have saw these earlier, i would have done something......god forbid.....i curse my own blindness and stupidity. hiazz.......if theres an almighty being out there, tell me why am i being played with like that?? only to see all these 1 year later. i live with imense regret at this moment. my many bit of foolishness cause pain to people.........you know, everytime i see the picture of you in that kimono, i just wanna say you look stunning.....but i guess its rather late now. she have had other interest in her life now. i just wanna say that i would nv forget you and the memories.. from the musical at sec 2--to you celebrating every year of my bday. i still keep every single thing you gave me in mint condition.....im rather overwhelmed by emotions right now......if you are reading this, i just wanna say im a fool....im sorry....bless you...

Some thoughts to reflect the previous few entries. Sometimes arent we amazed by our own foolishness? yes, amazed. Amazed at when you thought you know how to control yourself, you blurt out idoitic words that one regret later. words are such powerful object. If atomic bombs are the most powerful weapon on earth, then i guess words are the equalvaent of it in literay terms.......well, im pretty choked with lots of thoughts right now, dont know how to pen this entry any futher...untill next time, peace out--

some interesting facts--why they spell god "god" reverse the spelling and you get dog.
so dogs are humans best friends after all

The most powerful sword vs its sheath---who wins?

What is peace without war
What is war without hate
What is hate without doubt
What is doubt without trust
What is trust without believe
What is believe without hope
What is Hope without dreams
What are dreams without thoughts
What are thoughts without Us
What are we?

Hey....the creative juice is flowing....much have happened recently....inspired me to write whats above. i guess if the world is against me then something must be wrong with me. First there was this group thing, then there was this band thing now theres this friend thing. shall elaborate if i feel like it next time....bye to myself....bye to the world. A new life awaits.