Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Teluk Danga Bay Games

Karate

Hayashi-Ha: 0 medal

Gim Kai: Fractured Nose

Outcome: Sian

Monday, February 18, 2008

His email:

Hi Gim Kai,
It really wonderful to see how you are helping with the Springfield band. Your words to the so called "Ping Yi" alumni and me today has really been a great insight and Inspiration to me. Never mind, the friendship that we have forge as the titans. Never mind the lesson you have learn as students leaders with edwin and us. I'm sure those do not amount to anything now? There was not even a greeting of such as friends but more of a accusation of us as "supervisors".

Thank you very much for your kind words and wisdom, for through all your words and action, i have really seen why the band is as such. Because, past values, past friendship and past achievement as ONE TITANS, has long been forgotten, and not valued. Exactly as what the school is thinking, congratulations for upholding the springfield value of not caring about it's history and be a selfish group of people, who do not care about it's roots and history.

What's more hurting that it has to come from you, a person who i see is most mature to handle this type of situation. You have come to forgotten how much ping yi has helped grown springfield band. And how much, no matter separated we are, we still come from the same values and sources. The Titans.

To see you, a person whom i respect so much, forget the values that have made the band where they are today has definitely been really hurting. I have tried so much to not seperated the Alumni, to continue on as TITANS ALUMNI BAND, but unfortunately you do not think the same way. I have no qualms about your so called "Springfield" alumni coming to ping yi. I have even invited them. But, well, you mind that we have and therefore have effectively uphold the "narrow minded" view of the school's management. Kudos to you!

Since, my so called "Ping Yi" alumni are not welcome, we will not force ourselves on your team. It just sad to note that these so called "ping yi" alumni today consists of so many springfielders, and in it, there is even syafiq, who have braved much with you. not to forget Edwin, who was once your brother and fellow general, leading the band for "war" together, All the past means nothing to you where there is not even an aknowledgement that he is there.

Those "Ping Yi" alumni have even asked me when i told them to come with me, HOW CAN THEY HELP? They were doubtful about coming and whether they can contribute. And even before they can try to contribute. You have shoot them down. For me, it's nothing, it's my responsiblity to come, but for them......... it's because MY alumni know that springfield is after part of our roots, part of the once titans that we have come to learn so much from that they come.

Thank you for showing me that i was wrong. I totally apologised for trying to even convince "Ping Yi" alumni to even come for springfield practice. It was me that told them to come and it is no fault of theirs. For that, i apologise to you. I'm sorry for making an error in judgment that you were different from what the school is. I'm really sorry, please do not put the blame on them, they are after all just showing their "TITANS SPIRIT". If there is any fault, it's all mine.

I think you have effectively shown me the direction to go. The band has lost the basic character of the titans. And as much as you tell me how much you want to bring it back. Today, i see a different you. A you that seperate the Springfield from the Ping Yi, a you that forgets how much both the bands has been through over the years to stand where we are today. A you have have forgotten how much of my life i have put into Springfield. A you that have forgotten for what i have always stand for and the values that i have always wanted to uphold. The very basic foundation of the band. A you that have forgotten how much faith and trust i have put in you.

I know i can be wrong. For that, I'm Sorry. Do not have undue worry about the future, for you will not see me and my "Ping Yi" alumni ever in Springfield to see the band again. It's always my philosophy, why force our self on others when we are not welcome or even appreciated

All the best to you with YOUR Springfield Band. A band that is part of my life but has been destroyed by narrow mindedness from the school managment and now from my very own student. A band that i have put half my life in. you will and can never understand what Springfield Band means to me.

Once again, sorry for the inconvenience and unhappiness that i have caused today. Rest Assured! NONE of my "Ping Yi " alumni will ever set foot into Springfield Band EVER AGAIN!

WARMEST WISHES AND BEST REGARDS

Your humble servent
KENRICK
Band Director
TITANS MARCHING BAND


My reply

ell me something really.

you words give me big insights too

unlike your sarcastic email and your selective choice of words

i will speak to you in truth and infront

do not talk to me about titans values when you preach it and not do it

you do not even respect the current conductor Mr. tong and acknowledge him infront of the members.

i came back for the love of this band. what did you come back for at this point of time? 1.5 months from competition?

tell me honestly, and deep down in your heart. did the crew came back with the pure intention and the utmost pure intention of helping. you and i only know the answer too well.

it is precisely because i do not forget any lessons and experiences that im doing what i am doing today.

at least i dare to stand up for truly what i believe in and defend my belief.

i wish to remind you. i am not anywhere beneath you for i have proven my mettle in any organization i have led since i left the band.

in truth and in honesty. i do respect you. the values and beliefs you once taught.

but the day you tell me to let the band die.

i have understood you are not the man you once were.

because a true educationist do not speak without regards for students.

what characters and values you speak of when you want the band to die.

what of the current members of the band? let them die?

and then suddenly you want the band to get sliver because you are so afraid that the school will terminate bandworld?

what is the difference between you and Mr Ong? an educationist and a businessman?

tell me this is leadership i tell you its bullshit.

i know leadership and leadership tells me to not give up no matter what.

you tell me you and the crew came back because the principal believed in your crew's ability to deliver.

tell me where was the help when i needed it and pleaded with you for it?

and you asked me to convince them myself?

today 2.5 months later, you dare to come and tell me that they want to help.

so what if they are to help? have you no respect for your fellow colleague Mr. Tong?

where are your plans for him? conveniently put him one side?

have you ever sat down with him and talked to him about your concerns

do not tell you me he do not understand or he insist his own ways

because i have told him and he have accepted my suggestions.

yes the band's dressing is very 'straight', they are very 'smart' their music is 'fantastic' as mentioned by your crew.

i laugh at this statements and wondered is this the titans values you preach

i am 20 this year and have achieved much more in life then you have ever imagined. of course i contribute that to your guidance sincerely

i have done you and your teachings proud by excelling and rising to the top of the echelon of any organizations i am in

i will continue to do so

even if it means going against you


Gim kai,
Elected student leader (TP Sports club) AY07/08
Captain ,Karate
Trainer, Sports Leaders Training
Asst, Instructor, Hayashi-Ha shitoryu karate
Drum Major 2004

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

a posted this 3 years ago

now i post this again, i really like this poem

Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you
weep, and you weep alone
For the sad old earth
must borrow its mirith

Sing, and the hills will answer
sign.it is lost on the air
The echoes bound to a joyful sound
But shrink from the voicing care

Rejoice, and men will seek you
grieve, and they turn and go
They want full measure of all your pleasure
But they do not need your woe.

Be glad, and your friends are many
Be sad, and you lose them all
There are none to delicne your nectared wine
But alone you must drink life's gall

Feast, and your halls are crowded
Fast, and the world goes by
Succeed and give, and it helps to live
But no man help you die.

For there is room in the halls of pleasure
For a large and lordly train,
But one by one we must file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

Solitude.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

one of my fav songs of all time

brings backs memories

haha

郭富城-对你爱不完


灯初上未央来往的人多匆忙
我不要太紧张和别人一模样
但是你对我望两只眼睛大又亮
我开始失去了主张

风吹得路好长一颗心晃呀晃
多想找人陪我逛累了睡在马路上
表面上很倔强其实内心一团糟
怕自己爱像太阳

胸中藏著一把火这种日子不好过
把承诺交给你把微笑当作信
却怎么也抓不住你

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

music...

灯初上未央来往的人多匆忙
我不要太紧张和别人一模样
但是你对我望两只眼睛大又亮
我开始失去了主张

风吹得路好长一颗心晃呀晃
多想找人陪我逛累了睡在马路上
表面上很倔强其实内心一团糟
怕自己爱像太阳

胸中藏著一把火这种日子不好过
把承诺交给你把微笑当作信
却怎么也抓不住你

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难