a year now huh since my last post....

just really needed to talk to someone but it seemed so hard.....

i guess pouring here will help feel a lil better

why is it that every year's birthday is so hard to pass

didnt people say that this day should be your happiest day?

but why do i feel so troubled and vexed every such time of the year?

its hard to believe ive spent so many years of my adult life alone on my birthdays

i see friends and couples do the sweetest things for each other on this very special day

and all i got was silence and cold

dont i deserve at least a lil bit better?

dont i?

cant i?

dont say that nothing else in the world matter anymore when you have that special someone in your arms

id love to feel that

especially on this day

Gim kai, happy birthday

you are 23 now

a year older

a year poorer

and a year basked in painess