Hello my blog, my longest friend. its been so long since i last visited you. Im sorry that i did not update you about what has happened all these while. The last post was 2011, i did not realize i skipped the entire of 2012 without a single post.
Dear blog, you have been with me for as long as i can remember. a memory of all my life's battles. a testament to the growth of all these years.
2012 was one of my most trying year. i finally managed to pass my bridge watch keeping competency and is now officially an appointment holder, a Navigating Officer. A goal that almost felt so impossible, so diminished 4 years ago. So many major exercises, so many assessments. i almost couldn't breathe. The first few months were more ridiculous having to sail 2 teams due to lack of manpower The learning curve wasn't exactly a curve, it was more like a steep sloop that runs straight up. Makes me realize, the reason we are put through all these hardship is so that we can defend those we truly love in times of need. The harder it is, the more prepared we are. But thats what life is about yea, we fight, we learn we become better then yesterday.
My heart took a beating as well. i didnt think i could have the capacity to love someone so much. I tried to hang on for as long as i could, tried all means and ways. Stood by her through rain or shine. Alas, it was guy A and then guy B but never me. Maybe its really KARMA for being such a bastard in the past as Li Min would put it. The day i know she was attached, my heart completely died. However, i never once regretted for all the love i gave, the time ive spent. i believe It is better to love and die then never to have loved at all. Thats what life is about yea, we fight, we learn we become better then yesterday.
Oh yes, ive submitted my early release form as well for leaving the service. Finally its been cast into stone and the magic date is 14 May 2013. i remember embarking on this journey filled with uncertainty and for all the wrong reasons (I didnt think i shared the major reason why i signed on) As much as these years were so much a bitch, i really think that ive grown so much. ive become better, More patient, less bad tempered and most importantly being humble.
Finally leaving to study and join S.L.G PTE LTD (my fathers business). another leap of faith.
and dear blog, thank you for being here always.
