alright, i must say, after blog surfing. i must make a very strong point to people that some blogs are so freaking hard to navigate i seems that the entries are even smaller then some pictures. my god. people pls make it sensible not fanciful. who cares about your layout, people just want the juice and thats the entries. hehe. that asie, i got a double promotion in karate to full brown, one step away from the black. sensei promised me a black but in the end he says slowly first. i agree. wearing black has its pressure. so im gonna enjoy my brownhood~. it feels something like a full fledge bachelor except this is karate. getting black is like getting married. haha. ok next thing. i think i will go back to band now. haha......i did spend 4 fantastic years as a student there. secondary sch was about band to me, not some stupid maths sums or literature crap. haha (but the teachers of those subs are very good to me). well, thinking back, i must have been out of my mind to leave like that. h...
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im not a fan of hard rock music, but i saw this lyrics recently, really liked it, felt it was very meaningful, like its my other alter-ego. so here goes-- The flinch in your eye calls your bluff Feel free to die when you've had enough Useless cause is breaking your back Your life will end when you attack Make your move Make your stand Make the win Like you can See the war See me rule See the mirror You'll see a fool To take me out you must fight like a man You've yet to prove that you can You've yet to prove me that you can I see your might and it compares to something That is if something is nothing Time to figure Time to sin Your time is done When you begin Live for suffer Live for revenge Now your life Comes to an end Taste the blood Taste your fate Swallow your pride With your hate Your last breathe your last stance The last of all In your command Knees in the blood with your crying pleas Wade in your sorrow, bathe in your fear Clear the mind from righteousness suff...
this is shit man.......stuck in a near useless project group. Dysfunctional i must say. heres the group analyse as follows S.H----dreams and hald died. during project discussion, when it comes to crap talk, she suddenly become alive B.C---acutually theres nothing much wrong about her, just that, when our grp has any problems she can tell the whole world and me, her group member would be the last to be consulted. it seems some of her friends are taking a pity oh her (god knows what she told them) and have been indirectly attacking me Z---i think the only sane lot, but always distracted. always get left out but that 2 chinese girls. OR MAYBE im just hard to get along with and too demanding. it gotta be either way...... well thats about it, keep posted till then
jealousy breeds uncomfort uncomfort breeeds anger anger breeds hate hate breeds mistakes mistakes breed more mistakes i'm jealous........ feel like hitting something dont know why, maybe im a very possesive person. i just dont like her with him but, its her freedom besides we got nothing to each other. i wanted to watch the fireworks with you...but i canr, he was there first i want to celebrate your birthday with you...but i cant, he was there first i want to be your best friend...but he was there first i want to screw him...but you are there
ok i lost the tournement, got beaten up pretty bad, 2 K.Os, no medals, no pride, no honor. no story. that was sometime ago, didnt post cause of all the hectic project schedules. life is busy with projects and tests. miss the life in secondary school.....yea...do miss the band. but i want my life to be forward looking.......training hard at karate, gonna get my black soon (yes!!! finally). life is fullfilling. did many things =>
ok i lost the tournement, got beaten up pretty bad, 2 K.Os, no medals, no pride, no honor. no story. that was sometime ago, didnt post cause of all the hectic project schedules. life is busy with projects and tests. miss the life in secondary school.....yea...do miss the band. but i want my life to be forward looking.......training hard at karate, gonna get my black soon (yes!!! finally). life is fullfilling. did many things =>
ok this is bad......got a super super super painful pulled muscle at the right leg and tournement is only 4 days from now.. its so painful im typing this at 6am in the morning cause i cant freaking sleep.......damm suay you might put it.....feel super crippled.......how to fight when you cant use the legs??? stand there and be sitting duck?? hope and pray i get better enough to do kicks at least for a few times so that i can use em for counters. this tournement is my chance to get at least a sliver *gim kai hope and pray he gets well soon
life is never fair??? maybe its destined that i must end my springfield seconday school saga.....a big word for a not so big me. had a nice talk with this long time friend today and its good to known shes doing fine and even found herself a very very good friend. thats kinda great. i dont know this good friend of hers, and i wld very much like to know this felle. if *you hurt her, im gonna tear your guts out. im serious. if not, its pretty much fine. actually springfield have only 3 things that i lived for in my school days. one was band, but that was over......then there was the acadamics, the teachers (mdm lim, own everything to her) and then my best bud her. budden things got messy and nv had the chance to really talk to her........but now ive missed 7 mths of her life, totally lost track of her life. what can i say, im a big failure at personal relations. still havent been actually fitting into poly yet, even though my class is indeed fun. but its just different man.........theres ...
haha.......life is so weird........i was doing a yahoo search of my own name, now that sounds pretty weird, but ya, im bored, so boredom brings out the weirdness in me....and then i stumbled across a blog of a long time friend. all her entries were dated june-august 2004. and after reading her entries, i feel like ripping my own heart out.......i never knew so much emotions were involved. why am i so blind as not to see it??? why did i only see this entries only 1 year later?? why??? should i have saw these earlier, i would have done something......god forbid.....i curse my own blindness and stupidity. hiazz.......if theres an almighty being out there, tell me why am i being played with like that?? only to see all these 1 year later. i live with imense regret at this moment. my many bit of foolishness cause pain to people.........you know, everytime i see the picture of you in that kimono, i just wanna say you look stunning.....but i guess its rather late now. she have had other intere...
Some thoughts to reflect the previous few entries. Sometimes arent we amazed by our own foolishness? yes, amazed. Amazed at when you thought you know how to control yourself, you blurt out idoitic words that one regret later. words are such powerful object. If atomic bombs are the most powerful weapon on earth, then i guess words are the equalvaent of it in literay terms.......well, im pretty choked with lots of thoughts right now, dont know how to pen this entry any futher...untill next time, peace out-- some interesting facts--why they spell god "god" reverse the spelling and you get dog. so dogs are humans best friends after all The most powerful sword vs its sheath---who wins?
What is peace without war What is war without hate What is hate without doubt What is doubt without trust What is trust without believe What is believe without hope What is Hope without dreams What are dreams without thoughts What are thoughts without Us What are we? Hey....the creative juice is flowing....much have happened recently....inspired me to write whats above. i guess if the world is against me then something must be wrong with me. First there was this group thing, then there was this band thing now theres this friend thing. shall elaborate if i feel like it next time....bye to myself....bye to the world. A new life awaits.
Ok let me seee......ive got numerous muscle aches, a bluging stomach. ok for the muscle aches, let me type the things ive done recently. sunday-3 hours of jumping and countless push-ups and sit-ups. Monday--tennis for 2 hours tuesday--karate, kicking for 2 hours wednesday---karate basics, 2.5 hours. bulging stomach----the combination of unburnable fats and increasing toned stomach pacs. i dont get it, ive been training and my fats just wont go away!!! but my stomach muscle just get toner and toner....HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
He doesn’t understand……I did not turn against him, but he took it on to himself. He doesn’t understand the amount of mental burden, stress that was placed on people he hit hard on. The sleepless nights, the strain. I guess he won’t understand because he had turned out to be a dictator, Yes a dictator. Why? Because nobody can hardly stand with him in line for long. Has it come to a time where only his words are the laws? Where what I say to a friend becomes my poison? Well apparently so. If what I said somewhat created the so called politics and divides, then am I right to say that the leaders he trained are not up to the task? Hiazz…..i guess the amount of service I mount, the effort I put in doesn’t weigh up to his consideration of it in the first place. Well, my effort has come to naught after 4 hard long years. A man who I thought was once near perfect does has flaws…flaws that he maybe doesn’t know or doesn’t want to admit. I have saw a pattern now. The closer a person is to hi...
Damm……today my body was decimated to a pile of blood and pain by a guy whos in a white belt….as usual,, when to karate and had lots of sparring training….and then there was free sparring…..you see, my opponent is a white belt, so I let my guard down….damm ……wrong decision….the moment the match start, I was caught in a staring match with that guy and before I could make my first move, I was already in pain…damm that guy kicked me in the stomach…argghgh and then, feeling panicky, I lauch my barrage of attacks and this continued with lots of shin clashes and heavy kicks….after the match then I realized he was also in wushu…dammm….never underestimate your opponents shine a new meaning to me today. Now stuck wit pain all over especially this pair of legs of mine
The Truly Great I think continually of those who were truly great Who, from the womb, remembered the soul’s history Through corridors of light where the hours are suns, Endless and singing. Whose lovely ambition Was that their lips, still touched with fire, Should tell of the spirit, clothed from head to foot in song. And who hoarded from the spring branches The desires falling across their bodies like blossoms. What is precious, is never forget The essential delight of the blood drawn from ageless springs Breaking through rocks in worlds before our earth. Never to deny its pleasure in the morning simple light Nor its grave evening demand for love. Never to allow gradually the traffic to smother With noise and fog. The flowering of the spirit Near the snow, near the sun, in the highest fields. See how these names are feted by the waving grass And by the streamers of white cloud And whispers of wind on the listening sky. The names of those who in their lives fought for life, Who wore at...