haha.......life is so weird........i was doing a yahoo search of my own name, now that sounds pretty weird, but ya, im bored, so boredom brings out the weirdness in me....and then i stumbled across a blog of a long time friend. all her entries were dated june-august 2004. and after reading her entries, i feel like ripping my own heart out.......i never knew so much emotions were involved. why am i so blind as not to see it??? why did i only see this entries only 1 year later?? why??? should i have saw these earlier, i would have done something......god forbid.....i curse my own blindness and stupidity. hiazz.......if theres an almighty being out there, tell me why am i being played with like that?? only to see all these 1 year later. i live with imense regret at this moment. my many bit of foolishness cause pain to people.........you know, everytime i see the picture of you in that kimono, i just wanna say you look stunning.....but i guess its rather late now. she have had other interest in her life now. i just wanna say that i would nv forget you and the memories.. from the musical at sec 2--to you celebrating every year of my bday. i still keep every single thing you gave me in mint condition.....im rather overwhelmed by emotions right now......if you are reading this, i just wanna say im a fool....im sorry....bless you...
the year is 2025 i am 37 years young, somehow managed to remember this place and its existence once upon a time in 2004 a young boy started this journey in an attempt to consolidate his thoughts and record them. this boy is now a father, a business owner (assumed to be anyway) and wearing so many other hats that he once could not even imagine he would wear one day. the last post was 2015, about 10 years ago, he should really make it a habit to write more often, given the fact that life is no longer moving in a linear direction. Perhaps writing it out can bring some form of guidance and compass to the otherwise sea of life. to you who read this, say hi ok? you will always have my love