1.	You are posted to	OCS (ARMY WING).
2.	Your vocation is	OFFICER CADET (CBT).
3.	Your are to report to:	SAFTI Military Institute, Warrior's Hall.
	Reporting Date/Time:	22/12/2008 at 0700 to 0800 hrs.
	Person to report to:	AMPO
	Contact Number:	67997200/342/654
	You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force. Lets hop i dont OOC during the 9 months there

im like the poorest shit on earth

money

where are you

why did you appear again and start screwing my life all over again

it hasnt been easy

Eeeee yaaaaaa ohhhhh yaaaaaa infantry ya!

god knows which company im going to ah!

got no time to say good bye ah!

but got time to finally book in ah!

Eeeee yaaaaaa ohhhhh yaaaaaa infantry ya!

god knows which company im going to ah!

got no time to find girlfriend ah

but got time for gaying in the camp ah!

Pesta Sukan

once again i fall short of my target for national

the gold eluded me once again

ended up with a useless bronze

going to left right left in a few days time

im kinda excited~

i am back from AKF

in short for Asian Karate Federation Championship

I suppose i did not too bad

even though i should have gotten a medal back really

heres how it goes

India 0-8 Spore
Saudi Arabia 2-3 Spore

Semi-final
Korea 6-5 Spore

Bronze medal place
Taiwan 8-0 Spore

There u have it, i was trashed by taiwan.

But superb experience, never thought i could beat saudi

Life as it is, too bad im entering the army

no more tourneys for a year

=>

4 am in the morning, wake awake, somewhere is still hurting

If only theres a rainbow everyday

Lo

Lo

Lo and behold

ive finally broken my 25min mark on the reservoir

time for today was 24.03min

broke in by a minute!

seems so distant when i was just trying to complete a round

next mark is 23 minute before the army

5 pull ups need to do at least 8 before i go in!

1 more week to AKF

1 more month to Army!

How god close one door and open another window




Why dream of love?

Is this what eyes were never meant to see

The end of hope and all it meant to me

How can I find the strength to carry on another day

Without my pride, theres nothing left to say

Is this the way my life was meant to be

Too late for me to say that I was wrong

Perhaps the weak believe that they are strong

I thought that if I tried id find a way to earn their trust

Yet all ive known and loved has turned to dust

It seems there was no way I could belong.

The fire that burns within your heart

The pain that tears your life apart

The rain that falls from broken sky

The love I lost beneath the lies

And must I face the truth alone

Is the end of all Ive known

The years I gave the tears I cried

Why dream of love when love has died.

I know one day the story will be told

And in the end the secrets will be sold

And will they look at me and say

I should have known the end

Perhaps I did and why should I pretend

I only dreamt of love and growing old

The fire that burns within your heart

The pain that tears your life apart

The rain that falls from broken sky

The love I lost beneath the lies

And must I face the truth alone

Is the end of all Ive known

The years I gave the tear I cried

Why dream of love when love has died

http://www.friendster.com/viewalbums.php?uid=3176560


photos from spain

What is fair in this world?

i wonder?

Issint fairness a judgment of right and wrong?

and the rights and wrongs are a matter of the majority opinion?

So how do we judge fairness?

when judging itself is a matter of opinion

Maybe the only fair thing is chance (extracted from the dark knight, wonderful script writer)

chance is always unbiased

always clear from influence

always.....yes, fair

and so i am back from spain

the place is onederful

totally

the weather, the girls, the "price"

love it there

ill post more when i have all the photos

meanwhile

here are some knick nacks of spain

1. The day time is about 18 hours, sun rise at 6.30am sets at 10pm
2. Theres no freakin english channel in spain! so i watched apocalypto, reign of fire all in spanish
3. i will never share room with kim song and nick ever again
4. a can of coke can cost 40 euro cent in supermarket while the same thing can cost 2 euro in resutrant
5. beggars look clean and well fed
6. the fences at the train stations are so low, you dont have to pay to get in or out, just climb over
7. when ur train is on the other side, dont bother using the stairs, just run across the track like everyone else
8. The girls there are either too hot or too not, no in betweens
9. zara is dirt cheap there, a top only cost 9 euro (18+ sing), jeans 19euro (38 sing) just like our hang ten
10. Nou camp (barcelona stadium) is actually very small

Some literary nonsense i wrote from strokes of inspiration, really liked this though

its titled the measure of me

i can even remember who i wrote it for.

but enjoy anyway

copyright:Gim kai

Sunday, March 11, 2007

The following is written in inspiration from a long conversation i had last night. it is written also for this person =>

The Measure of Me

written by: me

How do others measure me?

By the glories of my past?

The actions of my present?

The plans of my unspoken future?

The medals of my game?

The degree of my literature?

The beauty of my wife?

The pedigree of my children?

The granduer of my house?

The trail of dust my car leave behind?

Or is it by the height of my tombstone,

where the metals of my game,
the paper of my literature,
the wrinkles of my wife,
the growth of my children
the rubbles of my house
the scraps of my car

comes in naught.

I will tell you how i measure me.

By the lives ive tried to inspire and change

By the days ive lived in happiness

By every moment i have not crumbbled to pain and death.


Above all

By the knowledge that my heart feels love. as much as pain

By the seconds i stay alive and well

In all the units of measurement of the world

This is how i measure myself

"How swiftly Caesar had surmounted the icy Alps and in his mind conceived immense upheavals, coming war. When he reached the water of the Little Rubicon, clearly to the leader through the murky night appeared a mighty image of his country in distress, grief in her face, her white hair streaming from her tower-crowned head, with tresses torn and shoulders bare she stood before him, and sighing said:

'Where further do you march? Where do you take my standards, warriors? If lawfully you come, if as citizens, this far only is allowed.'

Then trembling struck the leader's limbs; his hair grew stiff and weakness checked his progress, holding his feet at the river's edge. At last he speaks:

'O Thunderer, surveying great Rome's walls from the Tarpeian Rock --

'O Phrygian house gods of Iulus, clan and mysteries of Quirinus who was carried off to heaven --

'O Jupiter of Latium, seated in lofty Alba and hearths of Vesta --

'O Rome, equal to the highest deity, favor my plans.

Not with impious weapons do I pursue you. Here am I, Caesar, conqueror of land and sea, your own soldier, everywhere, now, too, if I am permitted. The man who makes me your enemy -- it is he who be the guilty one.'

Then he broke the barriers of war and through the swollen river swiftly took his standards. And Caesar crossed the flood and reached the opposite bank. From Hesperia's forbidden fields he took his stand and said:

'Here I abandon peace and desecrated law.

Fortune, it is you I follow.

Farewell to treaties.

From now on war is our judge.'"

Hail, Caesar: We who are about to die salute you.

Finally after so long of waiitng

i get to really wear national colours and represent Singapore this coming Aug

a pity its just before i enter the army that the dream get fulfilled

World tournament next week already, how time flies

then its Asian karate tournament after i come back

then its "training to be soldier fight for our land!....."

updates updates

my 2.4km time without sprint is 11.17min

just a year ago that time kinda seemed impossible even with a sprint

now its just my normal time

target to break the 11min mark before i go army

chin up still kicking at 3 and thats crap need to do at least 6 before i go in.

i lost weight! haha have to man with the kind of training and frequency

then erm, she got attached already.

what else can i do or say

army is my next stop, rifle my wife haha

courtesy of Ms Xiumin

something she said i always remind myself with.

"Man at your age are at lowest point of your life

you need to go army, a commitment for 2 years

you are broke, no money to even support yourself

you got no job and not enough education.

women on the other hand of the same age

are at their prettiest,

at the right time for a relationship

starting to know many people'

entering the workforce or university."

Bad bad time for a relationship

lowest life form in society

resigned to fate i am, haha...

on the other hand, 5 years down the road the role will be reversed with you earning more money and at your peak of life!

looking forward then =>

I guess

this is the end then?

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

Father

Coach

Conductor

Teacher

Couldn't sleep at all

Toss and turn while i reflected on my life

Had a talk with my father yesterday, over my life and of my siblings

future

studies

life

i was reminded of my place among my siblings

makes my father proud because they do well academically wise

me?

i dont have O level results worth qualifying for any JC or GPA above the 3.0 mark

i tried hard to excel in places other then academics.

karate,band,life

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

Coach

I dont excatly excel in pure martial poweress as well

i dont win enough gold medals

dont punch fast enough

but i once again tried to make up through other points like setting up a club, teach and manage the class

not enough to be a favorite

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

Conductor

I was in the band for a good 4 years, long time back

it was years of revolution to make it to the top then

Drum major i was

but the favours went to another man

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

My life have always been trying to make up for the deficits

through so many means

i did my best

yet among everyone in parts of my life

i was

The son who tries the hardest but never gets a nod of approval

Gloria Estafan --- Reach. A tribute to Springfield SYF 08


Some dreams live on in time forever
Those dreams, you want with all your heart
And Ill do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line
What I hoped for at last would be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be stronger
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

Some days are meant to be remembered
Those days we rise above the stars
So Ill go the distance this time
Seeing more the higher I climb
That the more I believe
All the more that this dream will be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be stronger
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
Im goona be stronger
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be so much stronger yes I am
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach higher
If I could, if I could
If I could reach
Reach, Id reach, Id reach
Id reach Id reach so much higher
Be stronger

Update update

hmmmm lets start with SYF 08

we got a bronze,

but im not too bothered about it.

i thought i would be

but after seeing the spirit undying even after the competition

i know

ive managed to achieve what i came for

it just felt like we won even though we really lost =>

for now, the future seems bleak and filled up uncertainties.

who knows what is going to happen including me.

i always thought band should be fun

just like the way i used to remember it back in my maha bodhi band days

that day, we sure had one hell of a time.

SYF 2010 (if we are going)

Kick ass, rock on


ok then now on with life,

it seems my peers are receiving their prophecy of freedom from their mailbox

dont understand ah

NS enlistment letter lar

i havent got mine

though i always wanted to go in early and stop wasting my life away

looks like i need to find a job to myself

Crew job at neBo sounds good

so anyone out there with a lobang

do take care of xiao di over here

Teluk Danga Bay Games

Karate

Hayashi-Ha: 0 medal

Gim Kai: Fractured Nose

Outcome: Sian

His email:

Hi Gim Kai,

It really wonderful to see how you are helping with the Springfield band. Your words to the so called "Ping Yi" alumni and me today has really been a great insight and Inspiration to me. Never mind, the friendship that we have forge as the titans. Never mind the lesson you have learn as students leaders with edwin and us. I'm sure those do not amount to anything now? There was not even a greeting of such as friends but more of a accusation of us as "supervisors".

Thank you very much for your kind words and wisdom, for through all your words and action, i have really seen why the band is as such. Because, past values, past friendship and past achievement as ONE TITANS, has long been forgotten, and not valued. Exactly as what the school is thinking, congratulations for upholding the springfield value of not caring about it's history and be a selfish group of people, who do not care about it's roots and history.

What's more hurting that it has to come from you, a person who i see is most mature to handle this type of situation. You have come to forgotten how much ping yi has helped grown springfield band. And how much, no matter separated we are, we still come from the same values and sources. The Titans.

To see you, a person whom i respect so much, forget the values that have made the band where they are today has definitely been really hurting. I have tried so much to not seperated the Alumni, to continue on as TITANS ALUMNI BAND, but unfortunately you do not think the same way. I have no qualms about your so called "Springfield" alumni coming to ping yi. I have even invited them. But, well, you mind that we have and therefore have effectively uphold the "narrow minded" view of the school's management. Kudos to you!

Since, my so called "Ping Yi" alumni are not welcome, we will not force ourselves on your team. It just sad to note that these so called "ping yi" alumni today consists of so many springfielders, and in it, there is even syafiq, who have braved much with you. not to forget Edwin, who was once your brother and fellow general, leading the band for "war" together, All the past means nothing to you where there is not even an aknowledgement that he is there.

Those "Ping Yi" alumni have even asked me when i told them to come with me, HOW CAN THEY HELP? They were doubtful about coming and whether they can contribute. And even before they can try to contribute. You have shoot them down. For me, it's nothing, it's my responsiblity to come, but for them......... it's because MY alumni know that springfield is after part of our roots, part of the once titans that we have come to learn so much from that they come.

Thank you for showing me that i was wrong. I totally apologised for trying to even convince "Ping Yi" alumni to even come for springfield practice. It was me that told them to come and it is no fault of theirs. For that, i apologise to you. I'm sorry for making an error in judgment that you were different from what the school is. I'm really sorry, please do not put the blame on them, they are after all just showing their "TITANS SPIRIT". If there is any fault, it's all mine.

I think you have effectively shown me the direction to go. The band has lost the basic character of the titans. And as much as you tell me how much you want to bring it back. Today, i see a different you. A you that seperate the Springfield from the Ping Yi, a you that forgets how much both the bands has been through over the years to stand where we are today. A you have have forgotten how much of my life i have put into Springfield. A you that have forgotten for what i have always stand for and the values that i have always wanted to uphold. The very basic foundation of the band. A you that have forgotten how much faith and trust i have put in you.

I know i can be wrong. For that, I'm Sorry. Do not have undue worry about the future, for you will not see me and my "Ping Yi" alumni ever in Springfield to see the band again. It's always my philosophy, why force our self on others when we are not welcome or even appreciated

All the best to you with YOUR Springfield Band. A band that is part of my life but has been destroyed by narrow mindedness from the school managment and now from my very own student. A band that i have put half my life in. you will and can never understand what Springfield Band means to me.

Once again, sorry for the inconvenience and unhappiness that i have caused today. Rest Assured! NONE of my "Ping Yi " alumni will ever set foot into Springfield Band EVER AGAIN!

WARMEST WISHES AND BEST REGARDS

Your humble servent
KENRICK
Band Director
TITANS MARCHING BAND

My reply

ell me something really.

you words give me big insights too

unlike your sarcastic email and your selective choice of words

i will speak to you in truth and infront

do not talk to me about titans values when you preach it and not do it

you do not even respect the current conductor Mr. tong and acknowledge him infront of the members.

i came back for the love of this band. what did you come back for at this point of time? 1.5 months from competition?

tell me honestly, and deep down in your heart. did the crew came back with the pure intention and the utmost pure intention of helping. you and i only know the answer too well.

it is precisely because i do not forget any lessons and experiences that im doing what i am doing today.

at least i dare to stand up for truly what i believe in and defend my belief.

i wish to remind you. i am not anywhere beneath you for i have proven my mettle in any organization i have led since i left the band.

in truth and in honesty. i do respect you. the values and beliefs you once taught.

but the day you tell me to let the band die.

i have understood you are not the man you once were.

because a true educationist do not speak without regards for students.

what characters and values you speak of when you want the band to die.

what of the current members of the band? let them die?

and then suddenly you want the band to get sliver because you are so afraid that the school will terminate bandworld?

what is the difference between you and Mr Ong? an educationist and a businessman?

tell me this is leadership i tell you its bullshit.

i know leadership and leadership tells me to not give up no matter what.

you tell me you and the crew came back because the principal believed in your crew's ability to deliver.

tell me where was the help when i needed it and pleaded with you for it?

and you asked me to convince them myself?

today 2.5 months later, you dare to come and tell me that they want to help.

so what if they are to help? have you no respect for your fellow colleague Mr. Tong?

where are your plans for him? conveniently put him one side?

have you ever sat down with him and talked to him about your concerns

do not tell you me he do not understand or he insist his own ways

because i have told him and he have accepted my suggestions.

yes the band's dressing is very 'straight', they are very 'smart' their music is 'fantastic' as mentioned by your crew.

i laugh at this statements and wondered is this the titans values you preach

i am 20 this year and have achieved much more in life then you have ever imagined. of course i contribute that to your guidance sincerely

i have done you and your teachings proud by excelling and rising to the top of the echelon of any organizations i am in

i will continue to do so

even if it means going against you


Gim kai,
Elected student leader (TP Sports club) AY07/08
Captain ,Karate
Trainer, Sports Leaders Training
Asst, Instructor, Hayashi-Ha shitoryu karate
Drum Major 2004

a posted this 3 years ago

now i post this again, i really like this poem

Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you
weep, and you weep alone
For the sad old earth
must borrow its mirith

Sing, and the hills will answer
sign.it is lost on the air
The echoes bound to a joyful sound
But shrink from the voicing care

Rejoice, and men will seek you
grieve, and they turn and go
They want full measure of all your pleasure
But they do not need your woe.

Be glad, and your friends are many
Be sad, and you lose them all
There are none to delicne your nectared wine
But alone you must drink life's gall

Feast, and your halls are crowded
Fast, and the world goes by
Succeed and give, and it helps to live
But no man help you die.

For there is room in the halls of pleasure
For a large and lordly train,
But one by one we must file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

Solitude.

one of my fav songs of all time

brings backs memories

haha

郭富城-对你爱不完


灯初上未央来往的人多匆忙
我不要太紧张和别人一模样
但是你对我望两只眼睛大又亮
我开始失去了主张

风吹得路好长一颗心晃呀晃
多想找人陪我逛累了睡在马路上
表面上很倔强其实内心一团糟
怕自己爱像太阳

胸中藏著一把火这种日子不好过
把承诺交给你把微笑当作信
却怎么也抓不住你

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

music...

灯初上未央来往的人多匆忙
我不要太紧张和别人一模样
但是你对我望两只眼睛大又亮
我开始失去了主张

风吹得路好长一颗心晃呀晃
多想找人陪我逛累了睡在马路上
表面上很倔强其实内心一团糟
怕自己爱像太阳

胸中藏著一把火这种日子不好过
把承诺交给你把微笑当作信
却怎么也抓不住你

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

对你爱爱爱不完
我可以天天月月年年到永远
so we love love love tonight
不愿意丝丝点点些些去面对
对你爱爱爱不完
相爱原本总是这么难

2 projects down

left IMC/Global

time really flies

what a love hate relationship people have with then school and projects

at the sunset of my education here in TP

u wish things wont go so fast

when u are in the midst of hell and severe lack of sleep

you wish you get it done and over with

Comissioning parade

i didnt know it still can sting that much