in the backgoud music of monoke hime medley i type gimmy's life story part 1..... Prolouge: a tale of glory, defeat, struggle, happiness, anger, action, triller, a little romance (just a little, really!!) it takes us through sci-fic, medeival, contempory times as the protagonist, gimmy explains his life journey from the day where it all happened..... *disclamier: lousy english and un-english like words may be used, please read at your own disrection. it all happened one stormy night......fast forward nine months later in a labour ward......a boy came to earth and his grandfather decided to name him kai, combining with the generation name of gim, his name was Ng Gim Kai, a kid whose life will be made colourful with many expeirences of people he will meet, events he wiil go through and things he will see... His childhood was a strict one, a natural born left hander, his mother would always force him to use his right and to write, but obviously his mother failed cause gim is still rea...
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yay, first good news, i got my black belt FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! hahah, after 5 long years i finally got my blacky colour, now must train harder!!! few events for karate coming up. one is malaysia tournement in decemmber, that one not confirm, but will be good exposure. then january also got one but i dunno what. july got AKF (Asian Karate Federation) junior tournement also. training hard hard hard. today one was HELL, youve heard me its HELL. runnings rounds x7, bunnyhop up from level 1 to 2 x7, 60 standard and 30 diamond push ups.. end of part 1 training. part 2 was better with jumping and standard punches, realised my footwork is better afte the madness training. feels lighter. ok got our team jacket and shirt. the shirt is addidas sponsored by our shihan sim but jacket must buy ourselves. look very cool. at least i do (*okok i bhb) ok bye will be back again
alrite im here by DEMAND of a friend who complains i dont update so here i am. yea you know who you are, dont hide! first thing first. a very interesting thing even which happened during the week. i was on my way home from piano lessons and then the bus i was on, bus 8 came. i took it and decided to catch some sleep, was kinda tired. when i open my eyes, i was shocked to see myself not on the route of the bus. after awhile and some confusion, i realised the truth. the blur bus driver when the wrong way.....a funny affair really. ok and then i got sick, down with fever and bad sorethroat. must be all the junk ive been eating this week. haha till then, bye.
Brothers this entry is a very special one cause firstly its my 50th entry till date and 2nd is about an event of life i never will forget. well first and foremost, let me apologise for not updating, just didnt know what to say, but hey, im here today. sometime back we had a concert for the launch of Odyssey, the CD of MBS recording. Hey it was really a special event man....playing that few songs seem so special. But this concert made me realised how much fun it was and have been for us (the seniors) being in mbs band. It a very special place for me. after all, all my achivements in band, from the DM post to the gold in outdoor and linked back to my time in maha bodhi band. Then band taught me many things without me knowinng and inscribed many skills and memories which can never be forgotten. Yes it is a primary school band but this primary school band is one hell of a band for me! after the concert, we have some food, and thats when we got our CD. we got the signatures of conductors wh...
Ous~ tournaments over, got me 2 medals!!! 1 bronze from individual event and 1 gold from team event. Of course the team event was the highlight of my day. It was intense and thrilling as we cheered each other on, haha. The finals was the most intense. We were up against the NUS team. Our taicho (captain) said that they are good in studying only what, no need to be scared. Haha true. Our first fighter lost his match, the second fighter won. So the pressure was on me, the third match~~~ hahaah so stress. The captain told me to draw the match and we would win the gold. The NUS team sent out a mad man, so our teams mad man (me) was sent to fight him. Haha, result? A mad match. Wah lao, this ang moh is really mad. Barely hang on to dear little life. So end up with lots of blood and gore. I got a bleeding nose he got a bleeding mouth. Haha. But yea, I managed to draw the match and we won the event~~~ haha Gim kai’s body update 1 black eye (hurts a lot when I move my eyeball) 2 bruised shin...
hee-hahhhhhhhh, this week has been a ride of me man, starting from monday, i start work in my fathers company, monday, tuesday i went to service the sales line in woodlands, jurong thoses north area with a sales guy, man it was great, the rush, the adrealine. get to meet all kinds of people man, talk to lots of them. haha. took orders, delivered goods. then wednesday on, went to the KL branch by taking a blardy 4 hour bus trip up.actually take flight, but last minute to booking. one thing ive learned in KL is that one must be real patience. hahaahah the traffic jams are hours long, the distacen is super long, then thursday went with a sales guy to service some KL line. hhaha,i was damm lucky, we serviced port dickson that area. got to see the resorts, beach and stuff, real beautiful, services the HUGE supermarket, and HUGE petrol stations (petronas) when i say huge, i mean huge. it takes AT LEAST an r to travel from one place to another, i repeat at least. hahaahah too much to say~~...
marina......marina......a very good friend but you've changed so rapidly untill i cannot keep up. today you laugh and smiile, tommorow you give me a cold long attitude. haha, irony, should i leave the gap as it is or make an effort to close the gap. nevermind then, see how things go. anyway heres a poem called "suffering" something i want to say to my opponents haha (if i have tt enough time in the karate match. by the time i say fininsh i might be hammered into pulp) You got nothing and nothing's got you I can see your fear it surrounds you Built with strife and insight but it's not enough I'll defeat and discreet your every move Instinctual, just take your life One step one breath you're under my knife Killing slow is the way I conquer It's time for torture test can't wait no longer With your first step you will burn Can't control your hate you've learned Killing slow is the way I conquer Until you know the meaning of suffer Step twice yo...
im back, a karate tournement is coming again this time on october the 1st, a saturday, i think im taking part in 3 events, team kumite, open kumite and kata. maybe the kata cannot join, cause its only open to ITE people. been practicing my katas, 5 katas actually, supposed to remember 10....hehe opps. training hard again, hope i win something. training on friday was good, had row fighting, (where 1 of us fight all the other fighters one by one) 16 of them...haha....did a double shin clash, it kinda hurts but still better then the pulled muscle last month! oh yea, going back to the band on monday. might feel out of place, dunno what to say or do actually...haha.....cant wait....
alright, i must say, after blog surfing. i must make a very strong point to people that some blogs are so freaking hard to navigate i seems that the entries are even smaller then some pictures. my god. people pls make it sensible not fanciful. who cares about your layout, people just want the juice and thats the entries. hehe. that asie, i got a double promotion in karate to full brown, one step away from the black. sensei promised me a black but in the end he says slowly first. i agree. wearing black has its pressure. so im gonna enjoy my brownhood~. it feels something like a full fledge bachelor except this is karate. getting black is like getting married. haha. ok next thing. i think i will go back to band now. haha......i did spend 4 fantastic years as a student there. secondary sch was about band to me, not some stupid maths sums or literature crap. haha (but the teachers of those subs are very good to me). well, thinking back, i must have been out of my mind to leave like that. h...
im not a fan of hard rock music, but i saw this lyrics recently, really liked it, felt it was very meaningful, like its my other alter-ego. so here goes-- The flinch in your eye calls your bluff Feel free to die when you've had enough Useless cause is breaking your back Your life will end when you attack Make your move Make your stand Make the win Like you can See the war See me rule See the mirror You'll see a fool To take me out you must fight like a man You've yet to prove that you can You've yet to prove me that you can I see your might and it compares to something That is if something is nothing Time to figure Time to sin Your time is done When you begin Live for suffer Live for revenge Now your life Comes to an end Taste the blood Taste your fate Swallow your pride With your hate Your last breathe your last stance The last of all In your command Knees in the blood with your crying pleas Wade in your sorrow, bathe in your fear Clear the mind from righteousness suff...
this is shit man.......stuck in a near useless project group. Dysfunctional i must say. heres the group analyse as follows S.H----dreams and hald died. during project discussion, when it comes to crap talk, she suddenly become alive B.C---acutually theres nothing much wrong about her, just that, when our grp has any problems she can tell the whole world and me, her group member would be the last to be consulted. it seems some of her friends are taking a pity oh her (god knows what she told them) and have been indirectly attacking me Z---i think the only sane lot, but always distracted. always get left out but that 2 chinese girls. OR MAYBE im just hard to get along with and too demanding. it gotta be either way...... well thats about it, keep posted till then
jealousy breeds uncomfort uncomfort breeeds anger anger breeds hate hate breeds mistakes mistakes breed more mistakes i'm jealous........ feel like hitting something dont know why, maybe im a very possesive person. i just dont like her with him but, its her freedom besides we got nothing to each other. i wanted to watch the fireworks with you...but i canr, he was there first i want to celebrate your birthday with you...but i cant, he was there first i want to be your best friend...but he was there first i want to screw him...but you are there
ok i lost the tournement, got beaten up pretty bad, 2 K.Os, no medals, no pride, no honor. no story. that was sometime ago, didnt post cause of all the hectic project schedules. life is busy with projects and tests. miss the life in secondary school.....yea...do miss the band. but i want my life to be forward looking.......training hard at karate, gonna get my black soon (yes!!! finally). life is fullfilling. did many things =>
ok i lost the tournement, got beaten up pretty bad, 2 K.Os, no medals, no pride, no honor. no story. that was sometime ago, didnt post cause of all the hectic project schedules. life is busy with projects and tests. miss the life in secondary school.....yea...do miss the band. but i want my life to be forward looking.......training hard at karate, gonna get my black soon (yes!!! finally). life is fullfilling. did many things =>
ok this is bad......got a super super super painful pulled muscle at the right leg and tournement is only 4 days from now.. its so painful im typing this at 6am in the morning cause i cant freaking sleep.......damm suay you might put it.....feel super crippled.......how to fight when you cant use the legs??? stand there and be sitting duck?? hope and pray i get better enough to do kicks at least for a few times so that i can use em for counters. this tournement is my chance to get at least a sliver *gim kai hope and pray he gets well soon
life is never fair??? maybe its destined that i must end my springfield seconday school saga.....a big word for a not so big me. had a nice talk with this long time friend today and its good to known shes doing fine and even found herself a very very good friend. thats kinda great. i dont know this good friend of hers, and i wld very much like to know this felle. if *you hurt her, im gonna tear your guts out. im serious. if not, its pretty much fine. actually springfield have only 3 things that i lived for in my school days. one was band, but that was over......then there was the acadamics, the teachers (mdm lim, own everything to her) and then my best bud her. budden things got messy and nv had the chance to really talk to her........but now ive missed 7 mths of her life, totally lost track of her life. what can i say, im a big failure at personal relations. still havent been actually fitting into poly yet, even though my class is indeed fun. but its just different man.........theres ...
haha.......life is so weird........i was doing a yahoo search of my own name, now that sounds pretty weird, but ya, im bored, so boredom brings out the weirdness in me....and then i stumbled across a blog of a long time friend. all her entries were dated june-august 2004. and after reading her entries, i feel like ripping my own heart out.......i never knew so much emotions were involved. why am i so blind as not to see it??? why did i only see this entries only 1 year later?? why??? should i have saw these earlier, i would have done something......god forbid.....i curse my own blindness and stupidity. hiazz.......if theres an almighty being out there, tell me why am i being played with like that?? only to see all these 1 year later. i live with imense regret at this moment. my many bit of foolishness cause pain to people.........you know, everytime i see the picture of you in that kimono, i just wanna say you look stunning.....but i guess its rather late now. she have had other intere...
Some thoughts to reflect the previous few entries. Sometimes arent we amazed by our own foolishness? yes, amazed. Amazed at when you thought you know how to control yourself, you blurt out idoitic words that one regret later. words are such powerful object. If atomic bombs are the most powerful weapon on earth, then i guess words are the equalvaent of it in literay terms.......well, im pretty choked with lots of thoughts right now, dont know how to pen this entry any futher...untill next time, peace out-- some interesting facts--why they spell god "god" reverse the spelling and you get dog. so dogs are humans best friends after all The most powerful sword vs its sheath---who wins?
What is peace without war What is war without hate What is hate without doubt What is doubt without trust What is trust without believe What is believe without hope What is Hope without dreams What are dreams without thoughts What are thoughts without Us What are we? Hey....the creative juice is flowing....much have happened recently....inspired me to write whats above. i guess if the world is against me then something must be wrong with me. First there was this group thing, then there was this band thing now theres this friend thing. shall elaborate if i feel like it next time....bye to myself....bye to the world. A new life awaits.
Ok let me seee......ive got numerous muscle aches, a bluging stomach. ok for the muscle aches, let me type the things ive done recently. sunday-3 hours of jumping and countless push-ups and sit-ups. Monday--tennis for 2 hours tuesday--karate, kicking for 2 hours wednesday---karate basics, 2.5 hours. bulging stomach----the combination of unburnable fats and increasing toned stomach pacs. i dont get it, ive been training and my fats just wont go away!!! but my stomach muscle just get toner and toner....HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
He doesn’t understand……I did not turn against him, but he took it on to himself. He doesn’t understand the amount of mental burden, stress that was placed on people he hit hard on. The sleepless nights, the strain. I guess he won’t understand because he had turned out to be a dictator, Yes a dictator. Why? Because nobody can hardly stand with him in line for long. Has it come to a time where only his words are the laws? Where what I say to a friend becomes my poison? Well apparently so. If what I said somewhat created the so called politics and divides, then am I right to say that the leaders he trained are not up to the task? Hiazz…..i guess the amount of service I mount, the effort I put in doesn’t weigh up to his consideration of it in the first place. Well, my effort has come to naught after 4 hard long years. A man who I thought was once near perfect does has flaws…flaws that he maybe doesn’t know or doesn’t want to admit. I have saw a pattern now. The closer a person is to hi...
Damm……today my body was decimated to a pile of blood and pain by a guy whos in a white belt….as usual,, when to karate and had lots of sparring training….and then there was free sparring…..you see, my opponent is a white belt, so I let my guard down….damm ……wrong decision….the moment the match start, I was caught in a staring match with that guy and before I could make my first move, I was already in pain…damm that guy kicked me in the stomach…argghgh and then, feeling panicky, I lauch my barrage of attacks and this continued with lots of shin clashes and heavy kicks….after the match then I realized he was also in wushu…dammm….never underestimate your opponents shine a new meaning to me today. Now stuck wit pain all over especially this pair of legs of mine
The Truly Great I think continually of those who were truly great Who, from the womb, remembered the soul’s history Through corridors of light where the hours are suns, Endless and singing. Whose lovely ambition Was that their lips, still touched with fire, Should tell of the spirit, clothed from head to foot in song. And who hoarded from the spring branches The desires falling across their bodies like blossoms. What is precious, is never forget The essential delight of the blood drawn from ageless springs Breaking through rocks in worlds before our earth. Never to deny its pleasure in the morning simple light Nor its grave evening demand for love. Never to allow gradually the traffic to smother With noise and fog. The flowering of the spirit Near the snow, near the sun, in the highest fields. See how these names are feted by the waving grass And by the streamers of white cloud And whispers of wind on the listening sky. The names of those who in their lives fought for life, Who wore at...
Heres 2 poem to share to what am i feeling recently....... Pain----- All was quiet in this park,untill the wind, like a gasping messenger, announced The tyrant's coming. Then did the branched talk in agony You remember that raging storm? In their fear despairing flowers nevertheless held bougquets to the grim king; Meteors were the tassels of his crown while like branches that only spoke when the storm menaced We cried in agony as we fell slashed by the cold blade of an invinsible sword. Mutilated our limbs were swept awa by the rain But not our blood; Indelible, it stuck on the walls Like wild gum on tree-trunks------------------------------------------------------...
The Cycle of nature—I really believe in that now. I believe that every single aspect on earth obeys this Cycle. How people must grow old and die, how empires and kingdoms rise and fall, how good things must come to an end. I have always been a strong headed person. I always believe that One control one’s destiny. I don’t believe in fate or such. However even so, the cycle of nature still exist. One’s hardwork and determination to prevent failure will only lengthen the time to downfall. Say for example, The great Tang Dynasty of China, also known as the golden age. No matter how strong, it still ended few hundred years later. Same for gambling, during the Chinese new year, I played quite a few hands and I realized that winning and losing is somewhat equaled up at the end of the day, it only depends on whether one knows when to stop in the game. Everything goes through, Birth—Growth—Apex—Decline—Destruction, Just take a look around, it happens simultaneously around us. Events of our life...
A question just crossed my mind just now. Wondered what is more powerful? The most powerful sword on Earth or the Shaft that holds this most powerful sword. What a question to ponder about huh? Well one would relate this to so many aspect of our lives that we as the usual superficial human beings overlook. Lets take soccer for example. So many were the times that we cheered on the strikers who scored goals that won the day. However who actually wondered about the stunning display of performance that the defense gave to prevent the opposition from wining the match? Then there’s the band (haha, good one to relate in) We always hear those wonderful solos played by trumpet, flutes, and there’s the melody line, and running notes, Trombone, euphonium, Horn. Wow, this instruments sounded great many would say (those who don’t really understand band) Now, who actually says, “wow listen to the holding note of the Tubas, how it supports the band and the sound?” Many a times so many people do n...
The Image of Leadership - John SchoollandA leader's a man who commands much respect, But due to the natures of all, He's only as good as the image he casts In the mirror that hangs on the wall. He usually sees what he wants, and no more, He's afraid to look deep in his soul. He doesn’t consider himself as at fault, But wants others to help reach his goal.When failures arise he blames it on all Who failed to help or take part, "They never did what they were told, " he would say, "they haven't the skill or the art."What kind of a leader are you going to be - the kind who thinks he is the best? Or will you be one of the very few greats Who attributes success to the rest. Don't fail to look at the help you received From parents and friends all your life. They comforted you, praised you, and gave you the push To help you through trouble and strife. Another whose help you should never forget, Who gave you your life and His love, The One to whom all of ...
Ok, I don’t blog for a reason, but here I am, so obviously I got something to talk about. As it is, I have been going to Pingyi band practices a lot, well, its that I’m also working in Band World, that is why, so yea, Mr. Kenrick Poh couldn’t be to the practices also because he have this final year project thing which he needs to go to the warehouse to do something. (obviously I don’t know what is it) So I am left in Ping Yi alone most of the time. Well, what a way to learn I must say….So it is, that ping yi has decided on going to the indoor competition, and hey, it’s a goal to work towards to. However everything is there, except faith….. Well, to say the least, can sense that Poh is not that entu about pingyi going for competition, the way he speaks whenever I ask him about pingyi, and he keeps telling me that must think properly. Well. I must say that’s not how he used to be. I remember that in the past no matter how big our obstacles, we go all out to cross it. Even if the sheep is...
Ok, I am back again, by request of Ms Charity Tan Hui Suan that I write again especially for her. Ok here goes, It goes right all the way back to when we were secondary one, her impression to me was that she is a always with the gang of Lisa, Sheryl that gang lar, then later on, always skip band practice and then suddenly always come for band practice then like siao on ah! Finally became Our Quatermaster for Springfield Military Band. However her voice continues to precede her till this day. On the whole, she is a rather sweet girl I must say (if she talk gently and softly) demure in her own way, (if she don’t always poke me in the ribs or threaten to do so) beautiful looking (if she don’t wail and have so many big actions and mimics what people say) So yea, She is this kind of girl I’ve known.
*any resembles or mention of name is purely coincidental and should not be offended or whatsoever
*This blog would not be a success without the support of the lovely beloved Ms Charity Tan Hui...
Hmmmmm…….ok, this blog entry is dedicated to the lovely beloved Charity Tan Hui Suan because she had opened her golden mouth saying that I make her happy for nothing when she read my previous blog entry. Ok, so like she say until its my fault like that….So, never mind , I am going to qrite something down anyway, JUST FOR HER!!!!! YOU SEE THIS???? ESPECIALLY FOR YOU!!!! DON’T SAY I NOT GOOD!!! Ok……what shall I say?.........she makes my life happy with her loud voice? So happy until im crying right now while typing this……okok…Very tired so finally this is dedicated to Charity Tan Hui Suan, without her, this entry would not be a success