well, im typing tis at wat....2am in the morning so im abit cranky, wrong spelling might occur so bare with me.....just read ruby 's blog just now and i must say tt its really gd to hear tt she had such emotions overwealming her when she was on stage...hmmm. wat can i say, such feelings are so hard to come by, ppl might even only exprience it once in their lifetime, the last time i had emtions running in my veins was this year(syf 2004) and before tt was wat....pri6(syf 2000) 4 years apart to feel it for 5mins...haha..okok...i woke up at 5 tis mornig, at my breakfast at 6 behind sch and had my last parade today...okok blah blah blah, nothing much really happened untill when i was going home, when i was crossing the road(okok, i was jay-walking) i was talking to my friend who was at the other end of the road, so my head was turned backwards while i stand at the crib at the middle of the road. Just then i wanted to take a step foward to cross the road without seeing whats infront, assuming there was no cars. but it didnt happened, my brain told my legs to move but they didnt, only my head turned, just then, a motor-cycle zoomed past me......if i took that step forward, i would not be sitting here typing this.....man,......i was caught in a state of shocked for a while....i realised i chld have almost gt killed for smthingas simple as taking one step...OMG.....was i not meant to die?? im very sure i wanted to take tt step forward, but for some reason, i didnt...haah...fate i guess....it left me thinking tt life is so fragile, u can end up dying without yourself knowing at all....so..what if i took that step??wld i die??? if i did, wld i be remembered?? how wld i be remembered??? will ppl forget me??? All these tots came rushing to my head at tt instant i dun knoe y...hmmm...points to ponder i guess