阳光总在风雨后

Its been like a 1000 yrs since i updated my blog, kinda lk always didnt pop into my mind abt updating it untill just now while reading sm other people's blog, so here i am pening down my thoughts about the serveral erm....unpleasnt events that unfolded this past few weeks or days.....Lisa and sheryl came to me and to talked about the events that unfolded and i liked kinda aticipated it when they first said that wanna talked to me about some VERY important matters. And so it is, i havent been living my name as it should be and letting things affect my life VERY VERY VERY DRASTICALLY. I cld see in lisa's eyes tt major dissapointment she had in me and i feel...how would say....rather pain stricken. Not by tt dissapointment, but about myself. Im sure i nt only dissapointed her but to everyone who i have lead or led before out there especially to my mentor...he said i have already failed as a leader.....i have no comment to tt except to pick up where i have left my passion,my resolve and most importantly,to pick up myself. They said i have changed negatively alot and tt i do not deny and nothing can change the past but the future has yet to come, i know, i must, stop all things and once again live up to my name. And so here i am, typing tis for all to see, be it you know me well or not, this is my resolve that i will not, will not, will not go down any futhur and again to hold what it truely was and should have been it the first place. Everyone now knows my resolve, and my promise to those reading this now. And to my mentor, i know i have already failed you, and in ur heart, im not ur leader anymore. Its impossible for u to forgive me after what i have done dissapointing everyone, i did not live to my word. Im not expecting you to give me anymore chances anymore because the mistake was too grave but theres one ting i can assure you by that little honour i have left of me that i will live my life, my passion as before and end that TING. Maybe this promise might not hold its weight anymore since my integrtiy is already in question but i hope that u wld give things a thought again. Ok signing off now, my longest ting i ever typed other than my composition... man....