ok this is bad......got a super super super painful pulled muscle at the right leg and tournement is only 4 days from now.. its so painful im typing this at 6am in the morning cause i cant freaking sleep.......damm suay you might put it.....feel super crippled.......how to fight when you cant use the legs??? stand there and be sitting duck?? hope and pray i get better enough to do kicks at least for a few times so that i can use em for counters. this tournement is my chance to get at least a sliver *gim kai hope and pray he gets well soon
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life is never fair??? maybe its destined that i must end my springfield seconday school saga.....a big word for a not so big me. had a nice talk with this long time friend today and its good to known shes doing fine and even found herself a very very good friend. thats kinda great. i dont know this good friend of hers, and i wld very much like to know this felle. if *you hurt her, im gonna tear your guts out. im serious. if not, its pretty much fine. actually springfield have only 3 things that i lived for in my school days. one was band, but that was over......then there was the acadamics, the teachers (mdm lim, own everything to her) and then my best bud her. budden things got messy and nv had the chance to really talk to her........but now ive missed 7 mths of her life, totally lost track of her life. what can i say, im a big failure at personal relations. still havent been actually fitting into poly yet, even though my class is indeed fun. but its just different man.........theres ...
haha.......life is so weird........i was doing a yahoo search of my own name, now that sounds pretty weird, but ya, im bored, so boredom brings out the weirdness in me....and then i stumbled across a blog of a long time friend. all her entries were dated june-august 2004. and after reading her entries, i feel like ripping my own heart out.......i never knew so much emotions were involved. why am i so blind as not to see it??? why did i only see this entries only 1 year later?? why??? should i have saw these earlier, i would have done something......god forbid.....i curse my own blindness and stupidity. hiazz.......if theres an almighty being out there, tell me why am i being played with like that?? only to see all these 1 year later. i live with imense regret at this moment. my many bit of foolishness cause pain to people.........you know, everytime i see the picture of you in that kimono, i just wanna say you look stunning.....but i guess its rather late now. she have had other intere...
Some thoughts to reflect the previous few entries. Sometimes arent we amazed by our own foolishness? yes, amazed. Amazed at when you thought you know how to control yourself, you blurt out idoitic words that one regret later. words are such powerful object. If atomic bombs are the most powerful weapon on earth, then i guess words are the equalvaent of it in literay terms.......well, im pretty choked with lots of thoughts right now, dont know how to pen this entry any futher...untill next time, peace out-- some interesting facts--why they spell god "god" reverse the spelling and you get dog. so dogs are humans best friends after all The most powerful sword vs its sheath---who wins?
What is peace without war What is war without hate What is hate without doubt What is doubt without trust What is trust without believe What is believe without hope What is Hope without dreams What are dreams without thoughts What are thoughts without Us What are we? Hey....the creative juice is flowing....much have happened recently....inspired me to write whats above. i guess if the world is against me then something must be wrong with me. First there was this group thing, then there was this band thing now theres this friend thing. shall elaborate if i feel like it next time....bye to myself....bye to the world. A new life awaits.
Ok let me seee......ive got numerous muscle aches, a bluging stomach. ok for the muscle aches, let me type the things ive done recently. sunday-3 hours of jumping and countless push-ups and sit-ups. Monday--tennis for 2 hours tuesday--karate, kicking for 2 hours wednesday---karate basics, 2.5 hours. bulging stomach----the combination of unburnable fats and increasing toned stomach pacs. i dont get it, ive been training and my fats just wont go away!!! but my stomach muscle just get toner and toner....HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
He doesn’t understand……I did not turn against him, but he took it on to himself. He doesn’t understand the amount of mental burden, stress that was placed on people he hit hard on. The sleepless nights, the strain. I guess he won’t understand because he had turned out to be a dictator, Yes a dictator. Why? Because nobody can hardly stand with him in line for long. Has it come to a time where only his words are the laws? Where what I say to a friend becomes my poison? Well apparently so. If what I said somewhat created the so called politics and divides, then am I right to say that the leaders he trained are not up to the task? Hiazz…..i guess the amount of service I mount, the effort I put in doesn’t weigh up to his consideration of it in the first place. Well, my effort has come to naught after 4 hard long years. A man who I thought was once near perfect does has flaws…flaws that he maybe doesn’t know or doesn’t want to admit. I have saw a pattern now. The closer a person is to hi...
Damm……today my body was decimated to a pile of blood and pain by a guy whos in a white belt….as usual,, when to karate and had lots of sparring training….and then there was free sparring…..you see, my opponent is a white belt, so I let my guard down….damm ……wrong decision….the moment the match start, I was caught in a staring match with that guy and before I could make my first move, I was already in pain…damm that guy kicked me in the stomach…argghgh and then, feeling panicky, I lauch my barrage of attacks and this continued with lots of shin clashes and heavy kicks….after the match then I realized he was also in wushu…dammm….never underestimate your opponents shine a new meaning to me today. Now stuck wit pain all over especially this pair of legs of mine
The Truly Great I think continually of those who were truly great Who, from the womb, remembered the soul’s history Through corridors of light where the hours are suns, Endless and singing. Whose lovely ambition Was that their lips, still touched with fire, Should tell of the spirit, clothed from head to foot in song. And who hoarded from the spring branches The desires falling across their bodies like blossoms. What is precious, is never forget The essential delight of the blood drawn from ageless springs Breaking through rocks in worlds before our earth. Never to deny its pleasure in the morning simple light Nor its grave evening demand for love. Never to allow gradually the traffic to smother With noise and fog. The flowering of the spirit Near the snow, near the sun, in the highest fields. See how these names are feted by the waving grass And by the streamers of white cloud And whispers of wind on the listening sky. The names of those who in their lives fought for life, Who wore at...
Heres 2 poem to share to what am i feeling recently....... Pain----- All was quiet in this park,untill the wind, like a gasping messenger, announced The tyrant's coming. Then did the branched talk in agony You remember that raging storm? In their fear despairing flowers nevertheless held bougquets to the grim king; Meteors were the tassels of his crown while like branches that only spoke when the storm menaced We cried in agony as we fell slashed by the cold blade of an invinsible sword. Mutilated our limbs were swept awa by the rain But not our blood; Indelible, it stuck on the walls Like wild gum on tree-trunks------------------------------------------------------...
The Cycle of nature—I really believe in that now. I believe that every single aspect on earth obeys this Cycle. How people must grow old and die, how empires and kingdoms rise and fall, how good things must come to an end. I have always been a strong headed person. I always believe that One control one’s destiny. I don’t believe in fate or such. However even so, the cycle of nature still exist. One’s hardwork and determination to prevent failure will only lengthen the time to downfall. Say for example, The great Tang Dynasty of China, also known as the golden age. No matter how strong, it still ended few hundred years later. Same for gambling, during the Chinese new year, I played quite a few hands and I realized that winning and losing is somewhat equaled up at the end of the day, it only depends on whether one knows when to stop in the game. Everything goes through, Birth—Growth—Apex—Decline—Destruction, Just take a look around, it happens simultaneously around us. Events of our life...
A question just crossed my mind just now. Wondered what is more powerful? The most powerful sword on Earth or the Shaft that holds this most powerful sword. What a question to ponder about huh? Well one would relate this to so many aspect of our lives that we as the usual superficial human beings overlook. Lets take soccer for example. So many were the times that we cheered on the strikers who scored goals that won the day. However who actually wondered about the stunning display of performance that the defense gave to prevent the opposition from wining the match? Then there’s the band (haha, good one to relate in) We always hear those wonderful solos played by trumpet, flutes, and there’s the melody line, and running notes, Trombone, euphonium, Horn. Wow, this instruments sounded great many would say (those who don’t really understand band) Now, who actually says, “wow listen to the holding note of the Tubas, how it supports the band and the sound?” Many a times so many people do n...
The Image of Leadership - John SchoollandA leader's a man who commands much respect, But due to the natures of all, He's only as good as the image he casts In the mirror that hangs on the wall. He usually sees what he wants, and no more, He's afraid to look deep in his soul. He doesn’t consider himself as at fault, But wants others to help reach his goal.When failures arise he blames it on all Who failed to help or take part, "They never did what they were told, " he would say, "they haven't the skill or the art."What kind of a leader are you going to be - the kind who thinks he is the best? Or will you be one of the very few greats Who attributes success to the rest. Don't fail to look at the help you received From parents and friends all your life. They comforted you, praised you, and gave you the push To help you through trouble and strife. Another whose help you should never forget, Who gave you your life and His love, The One to whom all of ...
Ok, I don’t blog for a reason, but here I am, so obviously I got something to talk about. As it is, I have been going to Pingyi band practices a lot, well, its that I’m also working in Band World, that is why, so yea, Mr. Kenrick Poh couldn’t be to the practices also because he have this final year project thing which he needs to go to the warehouse to do something. (obviously I don’t know what is it) So I am left in Ping Yi alone most of the time. Well, what a way to learn I must say….So it is, that ping yi has decided on going to the indoor competition, and hey, it’s a goal to work towards to. However everything is there, except faith….. Well, to say the least, can sense that Poh is not that entu about pingyi going for competition, the way he speaks whenever I ask him about pingyi, and he keeps telling me that must think properly. Well. I must say that’s not how he used to be. I remember that in the past no matter how big our obstacles, we go all out to cross it. Even if the sheep is...