haha.......life is so weird........i was doing a yahoo search of my own name, now that sounds pretty weird, but ya, im bored, so boredom brings out the weirdness in me....and then i stumbled across a blog of a long time friend. all her entries were dated june-august 2004. and after reading her entries, i feel like ripping my own heart out.......i never knew so much emotions were involved. why am i so blind as not to see it??? why did i only see this entries only 1 year later?? why??? should i have saw these earlier, i would have done something......god forbid.....i curse my own blindness and stupidity. hiazz.......if theres an almighty being out there, tell me why am i being played with like that?? only to see all these 1 year later. i live with imense regret at this moment. my many bit of foolishness cause pain to people.........you know, everytime i see the picture of you in that kimono, i just wanna say you look stunning.....but i guess its rather late now. she have had other interest in her life now. i just wanna say that i would nv forget you and the memories.. from the musical at sec 2--to you celebrating every year of my bday. i still keep every single thing you gave me in mint condition.....im rather overwhelmed by emotions right now......if you are reading this, i just wanna say im a fool....im sorry....bless you...

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