Lead, Serve, Protect, Nurture

The Truly Great I think continually of those who were truly great Who, from the womb, remembered the soul’s history Through corridors of light where the hours are suns, Endless and singing. Whose lovely ambition Was that their lips, still touched with fire, Should tell of the spirit, clothed from head to foot in song. And who hoarded from the spring branches The desires falling across their bodies like blossoms. What is precious, is never forget The essential delight of the blood drawn from ageless springs Breaking through rocks in worlds before our earth. Never to deny its pleasure in the morning simple light Nor its grave evening demand for love. Never to allow gradually the traffic to smother With noise and fog. The flowering of the spirit Near the snow, near the sun, in the highest fields. See how these names are feted by the waving grass And by the streamers of white cloud And whispers of wind on the listening sky. The names of those who in their lives fought for life, Who wore at...

Worse few days of my life……coughing and sneezing to death, goodness……Damm tired……Bless me……..

Heres 2 poem to share to what am i feeling recently....... Pain----- All was quiet in this park,untill the wind, like a gasping messenger, announced The tyrant's coming. Then did the branched talk in agony You remember that raging storm? In their fear despairing flowers nevertheless held bougquets to the grim king; Meteors were the tassels of his crown while like branches that only spoke when the storm menaced We cried in agony as we fell slashed by the cold blade of an invinsible sword. Mutilated our limbs were swept awa by the rain But not our blood; Indelible, it stuck on the walls Like wild gum on tree-trunks------------------------------------------------------...

The Cycle of nature—I really believe in that now. I believe that every single aspect on earth obeys this Cycle. How people must grow old and die, how empires and kingdoms rise and fall, how good things must come to an end. I have always been a strong headed person. I always believe that One control one’s destiny. I don’t believe in fate or such. However even so, the cycle of nature still exist. One’s hardwork and determination to prevent failure will only lengthen the time to downfall. Say for example, The great Tang Dynasty of China, also known as the golden age. No matter how strong, it still ended few hundred years later. Same for gambling, during the Chinese new year, I played quite a few hands and I realized that winning and losing is somewhat equaled up at the end of the day, it only depends on whether one knows when to stop in the game. Everything goes through, Birth—Growth—Apex—Decline—Destruction, Just take a look around, it happens simultaneously around us. Events of our life...

A question just crossed my mind just now. Wondered what is more powerful? The most powerful sword on Earth or the Shaft that holds this most powerful sword. What a question to ponder about huh? Well one would relate this to so many aspect of our lives that we as the usual superficial human beings overlook. Lets take soccer for example. So many were the times that we cheered on the strikers who scored goals that won the day. However who actually wondered about the stunning display of performance that the defense gave to prevent the opposition from wining the match? Then there’s the band (haha, good one to relate in) We always hear those wonderful solos played by trumpet, flutes, and there’s the melody line, and running notes, Trombone, euphonium, Horn. Wow, this instruments sounded great many would say (those who don’t really understand band) Now, who actually says, “wow listen to the holding note of the Tubas, how it supports the band and the sound?” Many a times so many people do n...

The Image of Leadership - John SchoollandA leader's a man who commands much respect, But due to the natures of all, He's only as good as the image he casts In the mirror that hangs on the wall. He usually sees what he wants, and no more, He's afraid to look deep in his soul. He doesn’t consider himself as at fault, But wants others to help reach his goal.When failures arise he blames it on all Who failed to help or take part, "They never did what they were told, " he would say, "they haven't the skill or the art."What kind of a leader are you going to be - the kind who thinks he is the best? Or will you be one of the very few greats Who attributes success to the rest. Don't fail to look at the help you received From parents and friends all your life. They comforted you, praised you, and gave you the push To help you through trouble and strife. Another whose help you should never forget, Who gave you your life and His love, The One to whom all of ...

Ok, I don’t blog for a reason, but here I am, so obviously I got something to talk about. As it is, I have been going to Pingyi band practices a lot, well, its that I’m also working in Band World, that is why, so yea, Mr. Kenrick Poh couldn’t be to the practices also because he have this final year project thing which he needs to go to the warehouse to do something. (obviously I don’t know what is it) So I am left in Ping Yi alone most of the time. Well, what a way to learn I must say….So it is, that ping yi has decided on going to the indoor competition, and hey, it’s a goal to work towards to. However everything is there, except faith….. Well, to say the least, can sense that Poh is not that entu about pingyi going for competition, the way he speaks whenever I ask him about pingyi, and he keeps telling me that must think properly. Well. I must say that’s not how he used to be. I remember that in the past no matter how big our obstacles, we go all out to cross it. Even if the sheep is...

Ok, I am back again, by request of Ms Charity Tan Hui Suan that I write again especially for her. Ok here goes, It goes right all the way back to when we were secondary one, her impression to me was that she is a always with the gang of Lisa, Sheryl that gang lar, then later on, always skip band practice and then suddenly always come for band practice then like siao on ah! Finally became Our Quatermaster for Springfield Military Band. However her voice continues to precede her till this day. On the whole, she is a rather sweet girl I must say (if she talk gently and softly) demure in her own way, (if she don’t always poke me in the ribs or threaten to do so) beautiful looking (if she don’t wail and have so many big actions and mimics what people say) So yea, She is this kind of girl I’ve known. *any resembles or mention of name is purely coincidental and should not be offended or whatsoever *This blog would not be a success without the support of the lovely beloved Ms Charity Tan Hui...

Hmmmmm…….ok, this blog entry is dedicated to the lovely beloved Charity Tan Hui Suan because she had opened her golden mouth saying that I make her happy for nothing when she read my previous blog entry. Ok, so like she say until its my fault like that….So, never mind , I am going to qrite something down anyway, JUST FOR HER!!!!! YOU SEE THIS???? ESPECIALLY FOR YOU!!!! DON’T SAY I NOT GOOD!!! Ok……what shall I say?.........she makes my life happy with her loud voice? So happy until im crying right now while typing this……okok…Very tired so finally this is dedicated to Charity Tan Hui Suan, without her, this entry would not be a success

Hey, yesterday had been a day I wont forgot, for actully night literally. I had a long long long long long time since I had a nice chat with this particular long lost friend of mine. (actually I lost this friend and not she lost me) we talked about so much things and all it started was a simple hello! I really have to say a big sorry to her cause I neglected this friend to fulfill a tremendous task. Now that this task is already fulfilled, maybe I should now seek to put my pieces of life around me back again. Well yesterday was already the first step!!! Hey got this warm fuzzy feeling eh? We talked about so much, about how have we been doing and so much about our thoughts during that whole time I was serving the country, no wait, the school? Hey no, the band. Hehe. So yea. Anyway, after we had our chat, I remember that she gave me a card after my April 17th judgment, and that card is about encouragement eh. Haha, warm fuzzy feeling again!!! Hey it is really proven, people of the oppos...

Today wasn’t a very good day to me. I almost got into a fight……. Those malay bastards was playing cards at me area and I kindly asked them to go to their place to continue playing. Bloody hell, they got the cheek to ask me to shut up and get lost. Man! I kept quiet and hold my temper and asked again. This time they ignore me. Too long have I gave way to them, ever since last year they were making fun of me for any stupid reason. Things that are not suppose to be funny they can make a joke out of it and get everyone to laugh with them. That is something I don’t understand, why do they keep picking on me?....... I gave them their way all this while was reason being I have a reputation to keep for the band as well as my own. But now, hack care!! I’ve stepped down, I’m graduating in 3 weeks time. Then of course I scolded back, those people hurled vulgar languages at me, God Dammit, I speak Hokkien you bloody son of a *****. I think what you people said, most of the time you don’t know the ...

Alrite here I am again typing stuff down which I feel like doing, say, blogging is actually a good way of reliving your stress if you got no one to talk to. Of course, don’t start swearing and cursing at people cause that’s not very nice. Haha. Some people learnt that lesson the hard way ya?? Say just read people’s blog about love this, love that. Haha, somewhat I don’t really feel good when I see it or hear it. I don’t know, maybe feelings are something that I feel is weak, even love or sadness, missing someone, depression, all this I feel are what makes a person weak and vulnerable. Or course with the exception of happy of anger, cause this feelings are somewhat “hot” unlike the subtle feelings felt as said earlier. Every time I watch a touching movie or those charity shows where they make you feel all pitying, I would for some reason turn the channel away to something else. Maybe I dun like to feel that kind of feeling. My short stint of that “incident” during the june holidays we...

Its been a long long time since i last blog. Was busy for my prelims. Say, i am wondering if anyone actually comes here to read all this stuff i wrote? providing the fact i did go around telling people about this blog ya? Whatever the case, it is of no concern to me. I guess my life is simple without much going happening except band and studies and for hobby, martial arts. Come to think of it, i sort of realiesd that i actually had a huge fear of something. No im not afraid to die. If one day my life have served its purpose then so be it. I am more of afraid of being used in the past tense, to be forgotten. Maybe tommorow, i get knocked down by a car and pass on, what would people say of me?? Most probably, "Gim kai was this", "Gim Kai was that" and then as part of a cycle,becomes a memory and then finally forgotten. Then somebody would most probably take the my place in people's mind. Maybe a new friend, whoever it maybe. Then all that you achieve in life becom...

For everything there is a season ,And a time for every matter under heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together; A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing; A time to seek, and a time to lose; A time to keep, and a time to throw away; A time to tear, and a time to sew; A time to keep silence, and a time to speak; A time to love, and a time to hate, A time for war, and a time for peace. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

hahahaha, i did smthing crazy today, i go barber cut my hair and guess wat i asked the uncle to shave my hair!!! The uncle was like, "you sure or not?" "i going to cut already!" "confirm ar?" haha, i say okok lar, just go and cut it!! this hairstly sure feels great, the wind blow can feel ar, the water can also feel ar, i tink everyone should go and cut!!! damm shiok!!

Hmmm.....well, smtihng caught my eyes just now, or rather reminded me, and that is the influence that people have over others....well.....some of you out there might think that you are so small, so insignificant to have an impact on others or maybe even influence their minds (even me) and because of that you do things rather insensitively...hmmm..or sometimes you do or say things and unitentionaly affect ppl around you. Thats rather common i must say, but each of us must keep in mind that what words we say or things we do might seemed inconsequential to us, but it might be a whole world to others ya?? I never really believed in that even i knew it exsisted untill just now. So a mesage to others, be mindful of what you say and have a heart to others, you might never know when will someone say a word so powerful that it will affect your puny little lives forever

well, im typing tis at wat....2am in the morning so im abit cranky, wrong spelling might occur so bare with me.....just read ruby 's blog just now and i must say tt its really gd to hear tt she had such emotions overwealming her when she was on stage...hmmm. wat can i say, such feelings are so hard to come by, ppl might even only exprience it once in their lifetime, the last time i had emtions running in my veins was this year(syf 2004) and before tt was wat....pri6(syf 2000) 4 years apart to feel it for 5mins...haha..okok...i woke up at 5 tis mornig, at my breakfast at 6 behind sch and had my last parade today...okok blah blah blah, nothing much really happened untill when i was going home, when i was crossing the road(okok, i was jay-walking) i was talking to my friend who was at the other end of the road, so my head was turned backwards while i stand at the crib at the middle of the road. Just then i wanted to take a step foward to cross the road without seeing whats infront, as...

Greating ppl , im back again, i just felt tt i shld make my thoughts known since i cant bring myself to say it to the people i tried talking to. Well due to recent events tt happened to some of the ppl around me, i realised how far i am away from the ppl that are around me, hmmm i gt these 2 ppl slipping into depression and i tried talking to them, and then i realised one thing, when i tired to console them, all the big talk and theories of life start blurting out of my mouth....now......it turned out useless and well, i felt fustrated. I realised that im still lacking in one thing, the human factor of me, i cannot relate to ppl.....maybe partly is because of my beliefs. To me tears are but signs of weakness of a human.....human are such weaklings, so prone to emtions......haha, now, ppl might me start cursing me now when they read this, (what the hell, u not human?) well yes i am.....Hmmmm despite me telling them so much things, they still stay down there, guessed theres nthing i can ...

well its been excatly 3 weeks after the finals and here i am finally penning (or typing) down my feelings down. Hmmmmmm.....wat can i say?.....it has been a great roller cosater ride for me really, remember the days when i was slogging out just to learn the basics of macework (guareenteed slowest learner ever of mankind history) to the high flying throws that wowed a stadium of 60,000....man.....the road had surely been long and difficult....come to think of it, how did i maange to go through it?? remember the scoldings, the encouragement members gave to one another....yes...it was still vivid in my mind!!! I remember always asking the members "are you tired???" haha and also the camps the break us and made us!!! The sounds of firebird, phantom still ring in my head everytime i wld go pass ping yi or see ping yians. Haha o ya, surely where gt so much gd memories? sure gt bad memories lk the backstabber united and tt TING which i prefer nt say it here (mr poh and sm majors wl...

Its been like a 1000 yrs since i updated my blog, kinda lk always didnt pop into my mind abt updating it untill just now while reading sm other people's blog, so here i am pening down my thoughts about the serveral erm....unpleasnt events that unfolded this past few weeks or days.....Lisa and sheryl came to me and to talked about the events that unfolded and i liked kinda aticipated it when they first said that wanna talked to me about some VERY important matters. And so it is, i havent been living my name as it should be and letting things affect my life VERY VERY VERY DRASTICALLY. I cld see in lisa's eyes tt major dissapointment she had in me and i feel...how would say....rather pain stricken. Not by tt dissapointment, but about myself. Im sure i nt only dissapointed her but to everyone who i have lead or led before out there especially to my mentor...he said i have already failed as a leader.....i have no comment to tt except to pick up where i have left my passion,my resol...