happy birthday to me in 2 days time. this years up coming birthday gives new meaning to me or should i say since my 16th birthday onwards, every year i celebrate my birthday with a new condition to life. ok not excatly celebrate. when i was young, i always look forward to my birthdays. i always wanted to tell the world so i can get attention. yup, i loved attention in the past when i was younger but since my 16th birthday, every year is a big jump, like suddenly i have to grow up alot and i started to dislike people celebrating my birhtday or rather i want to play down my own birthday. every year means more reponsibility, more expectations, lesser time to achieve dreams, closer to dying. i am going to be 18 this year but i felt i did little to achieve anything in my life. i realised i always keep looking for achievements one after another. after one is done, do more things. do more things. and some more things. recently, theres this sailing expedition for NYAA gold. joining the sports club, dabbing a little in politics. i would somewhat like to spend my birthday this year in peace though but a promise is a promise friends, so ya........... happy birthday gim kai, time running out, time to do something be somebody.......