come to post obviously got thing happen right. so ya lets start with new year. everyone is growing up except me. the only teen still playing with the kids and im actually having fun!!!! oh my god....something is wrong but i cant deny i like kids. this yr is duller in a way. 2 of my young cousins are getting married one 19 the other 22. haha my aunts and friends were asking when my turn and i say wait after NS then say lar. and then there awas CHINGAY. haha it was fun while it lasted. cant believe after months of regular practice, the event is over just like that. its like as if going to people's association is a must do thing every week then. suddenly i feel an empty feeling in my heart like a chunk of it is missing. and i finally realised why i always keep myself occupied with activities untill im so packed.piano, karate, chingay, projects. when things end, i tend to quickly find a replacement to it cause i hate that empty feeling. kinda like when friends and friends were no longer as close anymore. but that......is something that cannot be replaced easily. i was hopping and hoping of finding bosom friends in poly, but i guess not yet. it just never came. im not saying i got no friends there but i just know those wont last. once we change classes, so will our relationship with each other. its always nice to have someone to always hang out with.just hang around. haha. give up lar, as the chinese put it. "yi qie shui yuan" leave it all to fate.


it made me think after an incident that happened few days back. must there be a motive for friends to become good friends? and improve so on up the level? is it possible for the opposite sex to become best friends without involving any possible love relationship? whats happens after the love? many questions. somewhat i though i knew then answer back then, but i guess its time to think again. the next time im on better terms with a female, i should be more careful.

oh the ice queen says she talks in class now, a big change really and she actually inititates some wacky ideas. so unlike her. wah seh, teacher talking you also talk hor. last time like ice mountain like that, want to talk to you like so difficult. now like so lively and bubbly. the change is good and stop saying u wanna change back cause that will never happen. ultimately its the crowd you mix with. unless u telling me you gonna change crowd. *ive came across your old blog =>